the endless tots in my mind

an interesting guy.. treasure within and blessing indeed...

2011-07-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

he is such a person who provides warmth to me when I felt working place is like a cold palace. asking me how's my day and accompany when he sees im swarmed by lots of work and people. the positive outlook gave others the impression that he is positive but when I knew him better, he is not... i felt he is kinda cold at heart in fact, at matters of heart.

after going out with him for movies and such, he isn't such a boring person as other perceived to be. times are really enjoyable.. movies became our favourite past time activity after work.. he is indeed a sensitive guy who can tell what i was thinking about, it's like a 99% success hit rate! sometimes, i felt all need not be expressed in words but he is someone whom can decipher what I was thinking without the least hint. it maybe a good thing but may not at times.

hope he is a gift from god... telling me he is someone different from the others... Cheers to our first month! :)

Zzzzz...

pls get well soon...

2011-05-29T01:08:00.002+08:00

today just received a saddening news that one of my friends was hit by stroke. he was a jovial, nice and always be there for you kinda friend. he maybe a lawyer but he is humble and down to earth. my tears came rolling down my face and the whole day was in dire state.

life is unpredictable.. was supposed to meet him for coffee this weekend.. felt weird why there is no news from him instead the news of his stroke. he is still in ICU ward, doctor can't determine when he can be discharge from ICU but i really hope he will pull through this ordeal..

i prayed... for his well being and i will wait for his call to tell me he is fine.... please get well soon, leon...

best pals today.. strangers tmr...

2011-05-15T23:13:00.004+08:00

was very close with 2 of my ex colleagues while working at my last organisation .. the 3 of us left the place eventually.. Quek went to perth, LW and I went to different banks. we are so close even after we left till recently, i realised there are several occasions when Quek came back from perth for her wedding, i was not invited nor informed... i felt really upset.. but thought perhaps she has limited seats then...

today, i went out with my other ex colleagues and realised that they went out again. now with Mel; we are very close knitted during our good old days. i really have no idea why i was left out yet again. during one of my ex colleague's wedding, i was chatting with LW and realised that the feeling wasn't really close like before. Only Mel gave me the same feeling as before.

I do understand that friends come and go but not for friends whom you travelled with and worked/shopped with. i really have no clue why friends will leave you out for no reason nor smoke. as usual, let them be though I felt kinda upset but if they have the heart to do so then no point brooding over it....

hmm.. glad tuesday is a public holiday so my monday is not that blue after all... time to Zzzzz ... Ta!

pure coincidence or fate ...

2011-05-07T16:55:00.004+08:00

after casting my vote, i went my house nearby and walked past the clinic that XX always go... saw the notice that it is closed for polling day.. then i was thinking, will he come to see doc today.. awhile later, he called my mobile... initially wanted to see doc but was closed thus had lunch with his friend...

thereafter, he called me after seeing doc at his house nearby.. Actually, he wanted to call me for lunch earlier on... :)

a thought which passes off as a sweet 'chocolate' for the day... :)

annoyed and irritated...

2011-05-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

i know elections is a big thing now... but it seemed overly propagandized. be it which party or what statements made by who.. i just hope the whole thing can end fast. glad it will only be 2 weeks. empty trucks moving here and there with pre-recorded messages to broadcast to everyone.. I have never seen them on truck before.. only the last election maybe.

the long weekend has passed.. have been hearing when im at home and seeing fb pouring with endless comments on elections... i have this feeling that opposition parties and supporters are roaring out loud this year... could it be the long suppression from the public causing it? hmm..

so fast... we are moving to the mid of 2011, awww... hate it! year end is coming!!! geez... i need a getaway... i feel so tired and worn out from work... :( must plan!!

made pasta, caesar salad for my close colleagues tmr.. hope they like it.. may it be a good week ahead!! :)

My path... A fairytale?

2011-04-28T20:54:00.005+08:00

Don't feel good today... Earlier on, there's this client who called me while I was in toliet. I told her I was in toliet but she just went on and on. Can't believe why some people just do not get it..Haha.. Definitely not due to this.. I do not feel well these days. Almost k.o. in office last few days, luckily didn't..

Suddenly, the feeling of loneliness crept on me.. Feels as though, he is among the crowd I walked through.. Thoughts of him singing, providing me warmth everytime I'm cold.. Gifts of love in his drawer.. The carefree him which gives me the feeling of joy and assurance. Things will be ok.. Why till now, my tears flow as though I was watching a touching movie.. songs that will create images so clear in front of me, he's the singer and I'm the listener. It's has been more than a decade.. Yet the memories seemed so crystal clear.. Can my story just end off like a fairy tale for once? It always left unsaid, an ending 'to be continued'...

Will there be a chance to walk on the rainbow once again? Will I have the courage to do so? I do not know...

Its a small, small world after all....

2011-04-26T22:15:00.006+08:00

Had a long day at work today... Left at coming 9pm.. Went dinner with one of my colleagues.. Had soup and chatted about work, relationships etc.. I just casually asked her on the most memorable relationship...

She shared with me hers and me in return... she suddenly asked me his name.. i told her and she said she knows him. i do not believe that the world can be so small.. she told me his birth date and I was really shocked.. Amazing! she started to tell me his stuff and what he loves to do etc.. seems like he did not change much.. she gave me a look that she is going to have something up her sleeves.. haha...

as you grew older, you will feel that friends around you are getting lesser or few to speak of. the people that you meet everyday, may just be acquaintances but once you can clique with, you will tend to cherish them more...

looking back at the past few months, i felt it was kinda a 'down' period for me.. be it work or whatever.. work has became better, I guess... thanks to all the people who have made my life a colourful one! catchup with my ex or current colleagues, classmates, old friend and XX. times maybe dull and boring but you have made my life a wonderful one! Appreciated alot...

Thanks to god for blessing me with all these friends to tide me over the period when I needed them most. Night...

loss... reunion, joy and eternity...

2011-04-18T23:00:00.002+08:00

Last thurs, my uncle passed away at Indon, was kind of expected as he was diagnosed with terminal stage of cancer last oct. luckily, my cuz came back in time from aus. have been very busy these weeks due to lack of manpower (again).. really have no idea why it seems like a perpetual problem everywhere...

I have been feeling tired over the last few weeks... Really overworked... Supposedly, a 6 person-job became 3 1/2 person. Why 1/2 person? Simply, she's in her own world sometimes.. Not shes not gd, just not confident...

Met up with one of my previous bank's batchmate, Rina. She is getting married this year. Really spent a lot... her hubby is one of her primary school 'puppy love'... catchup a few years back and they are getting married! amazing!! feels so happy for them.. congrats gal!! my best wishes always..

shows one thing.. you maybe either searching high and low for the someone but in the end, he is just someone near you.. yet you maybe with someone for the longest time but you will not end up with him.. haha.. this is what i have learnt from her.. real life experience..

Feels good today.. went back CBP for training.. met my cute trainer.. he is still as charming.. :) at least something on a lighter note to start off my week..

Sad news one after another....

2011-03-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

As mentioned earlier on, one of my ex colleague committed suicide. Yesterday, saw xx's grandma passed away... Today, my colleague's dad passed away... My condolences to xx n katrina... Pls take care... Hugs!

Life is so short... Before u least expected, it might be the last time spent together... The key thing in life, cherish everyone around you. Who knows, it maybe the last time seeing him/her... Life is pretty short. Good times just end at a blink but tough times feel like centuries..

May they R.I.P....

lovely sunday...

2011-03-28T00:30:00.000+08:00

went to a fun wedding dinner on sat. thought that sunday will be a laid back one... instead, surprise do happen.. and yah.. a mark to remember, good times to reminisce.. enjoyed totally.. pls take care XX... miss ya! ;)

Sneeze... Sneeze.. Flu.. Pls go away...

2011-03-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

Had training today and was a short day! Ended at 430 and my colleagues and I went for foot massage.. I like!! However, don't know for what reason, I had flu since last night and I'm not recovered till now.. Kept sneezing non stop.... Just had the super drowsy flu tablet, hope it will go off tomorrow...

Life is so brittle...

2011-03-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

One of my ex colleague just passed away.. Committed suicide by charcoal burning. Don't know much details.. He is the first friend I've known that passed away. He is only around 30 or so. Heard he has depression symptoms... The next thing is, he passed away..

ZhenTing, may your soul rest in peace.. Hope you find happiness and solace in the other world.. Thanks for all the assistance you have given me when I was still new in the organization..

Feels sad... Need a hug... Sob..

A 14deg C night..

2011-03-18T03:30:00.000+08:00

It is indeed cold here.. was kinda troubled on how I can go to KL on sat. All the buses at the terminal only go back to sg. The only way is by cable car then bus but unfortunately, the luggage my sis and I brought was a bit bigger than the permitted size to board cable car. Thanks to one of my colleagues, James who is kind to fetch me from Genting. Nice...

After the afternoon nap, I can't sleep till 2am and was at Starbucks as there's free wifi, chatting with my friends. When I'm up at room, great! After washup, I'm sober again. Now at 330am, I cant sleep.... Geeezz....

A misty Genting....

2011-03-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

Touched down at KL LCCT airport, 640am. Was a 35 mins flight, comparing to a coach journey of 6 hours to reach KL. It is definitely worth it. From airport, I took a shuttle bus service at RM 35 by aerobus to Genting for 1 1/2 hours. The roads can barely be seen.. It seems like cold morning.. Can't wait to go out and enjoy the cold weather...

Received a sweet surprise by him.. It's actually nothing much to speak of but knowing him.. Waking up so early in the morning to wish me safe journey and some sweet stuff.. I'm sure he really made the effort to wake up. Thanks BB.. You really made my day.. As said before, he is not those typical bf that will really be super sweet to you but just doing things which you would least expect him to do. It's enough to make you smile from the heart. Things between me n him are still a big question mark. Somehow, I do appreciate his presence here in my office. It's like warmth from fire in the snow. I do not deny he does make my blood boils at times. But seems like as time goes by, it's good to take things easy n relax. I guess as you age, the impulsiveness in you tends to lessen and rationale takes over.

Here at Genting, will enjoy myself, relaxing the way I want it to be...

Fly... Fly away...

2011-03-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

Yeh!! My first trip for the year! Heading Genting then KL!! So excited... In just less than 6 hrs, I will be on the plane!!! Heehee... Can't zzzzz man.. Glad that Ive wifi at the coffeebean at Genting n in my KL hotel... Shan't bring my lappy... Added liability.. Seems like a few of my frds are going overseas during this weekend as well... Will be meeting some of them at KL for dinner.. Cool!

Will miss you XX!!

bits & pieces on a sunday...

2011-03-14T00:32:00.007+08:00

met up with my friend today... went for a pedicure and manicure session.. it was so-so only.. not really that fantastic. afterwhich, we went to Marinabaysands shopping mall. sat at Bean, a subsidiary under Coffeebean. She told me about her stuff... etc and finally, she disclosed that she is with one of her friends whom I know as well. they are dating (more or less, i have expected). Actions can tell. I can see she is very touched by the guy's sweet gestures. I mean women would wish their other half to be sweet and show attention to them as well. glad she is happy but somehow, she still has some reservations.

at dinner, she talked about my stuff. asked me how i am with him. she commented he is not suitable for me etc. I told her that i know very well he is not my kind of guy. sometimes, i guess.. if things are not meant to be, just accept it and move on. even I know this guy is suitable and he is the kind of guy I'm looking for and timing is not right, isn't it the same as the situation earlier on? she asked me would I be tired going through another relationship if things just do not work out? i replied her, yes... who would not be tired? BUT! if you feel that the feeling is right and did not even give it a try, it would not be fair to both parties. even you feel this person is the one and turns out not after being together for a period of time, trying to see things work out but still do not, are you going to stay on?

she commented that i am brave... i guess there's nothing brave about it.. just life.. the way you want to live it.. and try to stay positive to live the fullest to enjoy it! i have my lows as well.. if given a choice, to die happily or pathetically, i would rather die happily.. at least i have no regrets... :) just try my best to be the 'energizer bunny'!! Heehee..

Awww... There goes my long weekend... However, I just need to work for another 3 days, will be my trip to KL!! Keke... Need to sleep soon.. Got to work tomorrow... Zzz zzz...

An enjoyable night indeed...

2011-03-12T01:07:00.003+08:00

met up with phy tonight and my batchmate joined thereafter phy's bf. we talked about lots of stuff and I really laughed till my tears out.

reached hm, showered and suddenly felt kinda of dizzy... always! at the time of the month, i will have this kind of dizzy spells at times, it can be so bad I can feel im going to collapse on the floor anytime... then i will have to see my doc again. :( hate it! pls tell me its going to be over soon... imagine i have cramps, headache and dizzy spells. crazy!!

think i better sleep soon... rest more...

2nd day of leave...

2011-03-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

heard a bad news.. one of my cols is going to resign.. Awwww.. thought she is one of the better cols around.. but im happy for her as she is going to private banking. feels kinda sian working there... hope can move to somewhere better.

did my jetstar cancellation of my outbound flight, waited for half an hour before I can speak to anyone... my god.. comparing to Tiger airways, I have waited only less than 5 minutes.

Just another 3 working days and here's comes my holidays!!! haha!! just walking around malaysia... really no idea where to go.. just walk.. haha.. actually wanted to go BKK or TPE but seems like the airfare is freaking expensive!!! think a nearby trip will be good enough. heee...

was kinda bored today.. just woke up and brought mum downstairs for breakfast. heard the tsunami at japan.. hope everything will be fine.. disasters happening all over the world... geez....

first day of leave...

2011-03-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

today i went for facial.. was a painful one... i have not been going for my facial sessions for 2 months and my face became so disastrous... it is the first time my face was full of red spots and swollen after facial session. sob!! luckily, i did today, i have 3 days ahead to recover before i head back to work..

met up with XX today.. mood feels better.. :)

popping eyes!!

2011-03-08T23:26:00.004+08:00

i have been having bloodshot eyes since monday morning and it still hurts intermittently. Awww.. I do not feel comfortable.. sob. changed my contact lenses still does not work. my colleagues were asking me why my eyes looked as though i am going to cry anytime. please recover soon... :(

drunk thoughts..?

2011-03-07T22:19:00.007+08:00

indeed, he sensed i feel that he is drifting far from me.. I know myself when things turn different, I may choose to leave... suddenly received his long long messages.. telling me, he is not far from me.. he has too much to handle, somehow i feel is his family problems. told me he was eating the puffs i gave him from Marks & Spencer. I can sense he is troubled. knowing me, i would not ask him unless he tells me.

he commented he feels he is lousy in the way he treats me (true), as i always believe in, 'not everyone is perfect, it is all about appreciating the someone who is in front of you.' he seconded to that but he appreciated me in his own selfish ways (which i won't know). 'im part of him'?? just that he did not voice out... ok...

do you believe in people who drank more, would tell you their inner thoughts? perhaps those thoughts that are buried all the way down which will only be disclosed when the person is not of a right state of mind.. ya? he is the type of man who would not let others see the weaker side of him. he will not always show his passion or love towards the someone... so this someone must be sensitive enough to 'feel' his passion. deep...

for me, i just hope the person will show his love and appreciation towards me, not only on special days but as and when he feels like it. just like, everyday can be valentine's day not only on 14 feb every year. isn't that pathetic that you only show your appreciation on such day, birthday, anniversary or xmas day? this is an on-going process, be it you are dating or married which goes inline with communication. appreciating the special someone that has accompanied you and end off your day with a sweet note or the special someone has actually washed clothes for you, knowing you are tired after a long day at work.

this is the bits and pieces that goes to show the special someone care and concert towards you in his/her own way, in return, show appreciation towards the person by hugging the person and say 'thank you, i appreciated it alot.' it goes a long way... i may not be a good gf but i am still learning.. hope to give the best for the someone that is worth my love... :) Ta!

Gaining confidence or simply insecure?

2011-03-06T18:02:00.003+08:00

Do you have friends that keep telling you how well the opposite gender treats him / her? How well connected they are? They do not have any interest in this person (as though) but you can hear the party's name being mentioned in every conversation? keeps mentioning how brittle she is even though, she is constantly being showered with love and concern from her male friends around her?

Seriously, i am not jealous or anything.. just felt sometimes sending wrong messages all around the place, is just not right. oh well, it's her life, the way she wants it to be.

My life may not be as flamboyant as her but i do feel blessed each time i hear from XX.. AT.. friends that i have not heard from sometime like, sarina and foi.

nevertheless, I have learnt to enjoy life now.. loving myself... today, I brought mum and sis for breakfast, early movie and good lunch at Soup Restaurant. hope they like it... when you are not out with friends, it is always good to spend time with your family. heee..

A beautiful Monday...

2011-03-01T01:33:00.002+08:00

Missed my bus in the morning, thought that it would be a lousy day ahead.. But, another bus came shortly after, it was half full!! Im not late for work.. Amazing!!! I guess it's my lucky day!! Indeed... Had an enjoyable lunch.. coffee after that.. feels really happy..
Have cleared some doubts I have in my mind with him...

Hope the rest of the week will be the same...

'sunlight' shined in after 2 wks..

2011-02-22T22:01:00.007+08:00

after two weeks of gloomy mood... finally, i see 'sunlight' into my life.. everything seems back to normal... i guess it is just him. we went for movie today... feels better... but.. inside me, is this real? yah... was real.. watched movie. had dinner...

tots in my mind...sean's comment keeps coming in my mind since last night... 'he shouted at her cause he is interested in her..' why do i feel sensitive when he just mentioned about her at lunch and on our way there? only 2 times but i felt affected... women! then i said, 'today, you mentioned her a few times hor...' he said 'have meh, don even realised..' probably, i am oversensitive..

enough of that, today has been a great day for me.. hope everyday is as great as today!! nice partner to work with. settled tricky cases. unhappy clients walked out happily.. went out dating.. im back in contact with one of my ex bosses!!! COOL!!! god, pls bless me with happiness for everyday like today..

I wonder hows XX's hols overseas... hmm... enjoy yourself k. im sure things will be better.. :) i will pray for you...

Cloudy mood yet trying to bring rainbow to others...

2011-02-21T20:13:00.005+08:00

Ever since after CNY, I feel we have distanced.. Anyway, still the usual him, easily agitated. I know he feels it from me too... He msg me n apologized for not being able to accompany me... he is a guy who is full of confidence which can be a fine line to draw between confidence and proud... sometimes, he feels our mutual level of communication is not there...

its just me.. perhaps i may have zoned-out after work in which i may have missed out what he has said... sometimes, i do feel the stress when im with him.. somehow, he makes me feel lost.. donno what is he thinking.. he can be very sweet at this moment but can be moody the next moment... sounds like weather... time is an element which makes me feel nervous.. he is very particular on timing.. even that 10mins' late due to work...

this has been on my mind for some time.... despite this, i have been putting on a smiley face to all my colleagues and friends.. the deepest part in me, a cloudy mood...

Thanks T for accompanying last night for dinner when I needed someone. One of my batchmates bought a pink tulip for Valentine's day..as postdated. :) nice...

Happy Valentine's Day!

2011-02-14T00:08:00.004+08:00

Just had a CNY reunion steamboat dinner with Shi n gang... Was a Kimchi steamboat. Not very spicy, just fine for me. had lots of food and played mahjong.. have not been playing for a long time.. hee hee. waited for a long time for a cab near her place. seems like no cabs when it is around 10 plus.

Lots of memories flowed into my mind while waiting... I remember that he stays opposite her place. Used to put my first handmade paper during my poly days into his letterbox. (oh yah, he still kept it even though six years later when we got back together. In his drawer. All the stuffs which I gave him in the past.) Thanks for keeping them. I wonder how he is doing now. The last time I saw him was, at Jacky Cheung's concert last year. There is another of his concert this year... maybe will bump into him again. haha..

Hmmm... Just received a Valentine's greeting from T. Wow... It is really sweet of him ya... Somehow, I feel kinda sad... No plans, celebration nor gifts... SOB... and best, I'm having terrible cramps now.. backache!!! Will someone call me and give me a Valentine's kiss or give me a Valentine's hug?? hmmm.. shall see!

Got to snuggle into my comfy comforter... May tmr be a great day!! Zzzzz...

Days after CNY long weekend...

2011-02-11T21:07:00.006+08:00

At last... It's weekends!!! Now on my way home. Thinking back about the things that have happened, my thoughts and feelings. Had a long weekend. Have this mixed feeling which I hate to experience when I'm with someone. Is he packed with work or I'm just being oversensitive? Perhaps... Oh ya...He packed our favorite Malay fried chicken rice for me. Sweet...

Ironically , we were supposed to go out for dinner yesterday but he just left for home after work. I'm like huh.. Then he msg me at night.. Saying he still remember our dinner and he's disappointed with my excuses... I guess I know what he is referring about.. Alright. To me, I will be impartial between work and personal life. I guess it explains why.. He has mentioned that he will tell me off if I've made any mistake at work. I told him I'm fine as long as it is reasonable.

Today, he msg me for lunch.. Didn't know my lunch khakis and him were waiting for me somewhere till one of them called me. (weird.. Why is it not him calling me?) Like what I hope.. Relationship to be simple and sweet.. oh well..

On a lighter note, work seems to be turning for the better. The 'infamous colleague' of mine has a change in her attitude. She became more friendly and polite. Perhaps she is just came back from her leave and is 'energised' Haha. I feel really tired these days. Have been hanging out late..

Shall rest early today. Have to wake up this coming weekend.. for praying of tai sui and going market with shi and gang for CNY steamboat reunion!!! Yeh!! thereafter, is Valentine's Day... Geez... No present/date... SOB!!! Ta!

funny events that have happened today...

2011-02-07T00:41:00.004+08:00

today is such a blue day for me..cause its the last day of the week that I can sleep as long as I wished! anyway, i did not sleep much today... Wanted to enjoy my morning bfast... But not really morning or rather late morning by the time mum woke up.

Event 1 - Told mum that I have some chocolates for her to bring to workplace to share with her colleagues. Instead of bringing it to work, she mistook it for another bag and brought my Sis' stuff to work! It was damn funny especially when mum called me and told me about it. Haha.. Guess they are both in plastic bags, no wonder it was taken wrongly.

Event 2 - went out dinner with Sis. We had steamboat at Bugis, still feels as full till now. Thereafter, we went River Angbao. Seriously speaking, it was nothing compared to a no. of years back when it was held at the presently located Singapore Flyer. Don't think it's worth going anymore. It looks about the same as last year's except the leading character is replaced by rabbit. Haha... When we are waiting for our bus back home, I told Sis that I need to get a replacement corp phone and a new phone for my use. I'm currently using hers though. She was telling me, initially when she switched back to normal phone from iPhone, she cant get used to the way of typing SMS. (she was showing me how she types SMS, as though she was using the iPhone, tapping using her index finger.) She told me some people was looking at the way she typed SMS. The way she illustrated was simply hilarious!!! Felt bad man... Cause I'm using her phone now... :(

Anyway, guess I will have to get the phones somehow... Got to zzzzz.. Nitez..

Awww.... the long weekend is over soon..

2011-02-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

Oh well, this CNY is sure a simple and quiet one.. did not go to the usual Chinatown (which I make it a point to go every year) and River Hongbao. Hmm.. resting at home can be considered a way to 'energise' myself over the past weeks. haha..

Oh yah! Thanks XX for dropping by with soda water for my Choya, to brighten up my boring CNY. :) was doing my office's rosters for the sales and service people. totally drained.. have been sleeping alot these days. loved it!

CNY coming...

2011-01-30T21:52:00.014+08:00

just another 3 days will be CNY.. how fast time flies.. my CNY is usually packed and lots of programs one after another. this year will be a quiet year. there won't be 2 reunion dinners. only one at my house. done with cleanup of my room.. just moved the new 32 inch flat screen tv into my room... wow!! watching tv on my bed is such an enjoyment.. w/o wearing my specs, that is! haha...

im watching 超级星光大道演唱会.. all the sentimental songs.. god... sometimes, thinking of the memorable times i am having now, on the other side of my mind, i am waiting for it to end. just do not know when..to maintain, yah i am.. you know how it feels when you miss someone yet you can't tell the person? you can just look at the sky and tell him that you miss him..

thought of the worst times last year, the day i reached home and cried bitterly. i will never forget what happened.. weekends were a torture and going work was terrible... seeing his email every morning.. meeting me once a week for dinner and telling me how much he has been thinking to be back together.. RUBBISH! thanks for betraying my trust in you and ending our relationship in such a way which i would never want to see you again.

Anyway, its over and I am glad. thanks to XX and other frds who have allowed me to hang on them to tide over. i just hope there will be someone to tell me, 'i will only bring you joy and laughter. I will never let you shed a single tear.. ' just let me forget the bad times and be with him... weekends are times that i will cook for him and he will have his turn as well. :)

hmm... suddenly thought of XX!!! where is he huh? must be working, i guess... its cold, pls take care ya... :)

hmmm.. dating goes on..

2011-01-27T23:11:00.006+08:00

hee... though, i am on my way to recovery from my 'sickness combo'.. today i had the famous malay chicken rice at lucky plaza with him.. haha.. he asked me whether wanted to have soup stuff.. i know he wants to have the chicken rice... so i accompanied him. thereafter, we went out after work. ehhhh... he waited sometime but he seemed fine.. *phewz* maybe he is on a happy mood, that's why... Was whats apping him earlier in the morn that I needed a BIG HUG! something happened at work which upset me quite a bit.

we watched the movie, shaolin and met our col in the theatre. such a coincidence! we spotted his car at the carpark then i was telling him maybe he is watching the same movie as us..i msg my col asked him whether want to join us for movie. he said cant make it... then we were like HMM.... ok.. too bad when your car plate no. is so easy to remember. haha. thereafter, we went to kway chap at Macpherson. he is sweet.. when i was almost finishing my green tea, he told me to eat my medicine. in fact, i did not have at all for the whole day.. hmm.. plus point!! hee...

despite of all the bitches at work, i just want to say... thanks to god for letting me know you. situation may not be favourable now but still, i can feel u are a sincere and sweet guy. though, you always say things which may not be pleasant to hear, i know it's just you. i can feel you are very tired today and still made time to accompany me, the' '又恨又很爱'. haha.. sometimes, i feel the way you treat me is like the 道明寺 in meteor garden(taiwan version). really made me feel why do i like such a guy who always make my blood pressure rise for the wrong reason... hugging him always made me feel at ease and whatever shit that has happened to me are forgotten... hmm... he is different, i guess.

Sicko me....

2011-01-27T07:49:00.003+08:00

Had sore throat earlier on and now coughing in the middle of the night... What could be worse?? Have been popping pills since Monday... Feels terrible especially I need to be on antibiotics.. :( he has been accompanying me to places which sell soup stuff...I know he's not a soup person. he kept asking me whether I had medi.. Feels so sleepy now... Went out for our branch dinner last night. Was at peony jade @keppel club. damn far from my office.. He gave me a lift there though we have to walk a distance to the carpark.. It feels sweet to share an umbrella.. During the journey there, he asked me how I'm going Hm.. Told him cab.. Cause I was thinking not to stay for the Ktv session..

The dishes were not bad. Especially the abalone broccoli!! It's good.. Has been coughing all the while man... Feels as though my lungs are going to be out soon... He was very gentleman. Served food to the whole table. of cos served me first.. Hee... There was a new colleague that joined us.. Geez... She was looking at him... Don't think I'm being oversensitive... I saw it more than once... :P Haha.. During the Ktv session, he came over n told me to share cab w my other colleague... Hmmm.. Plus point! Haha...

I can feel he's troubled about his work n career. Somehow, it's a 2 way thing. Good that he's worried. means he wants to be better.. However, certain things can't be rushed.. I'm sure you will shine like u used to. Have faith ya! :D

Another day till weekends, really need a good rest....

appreciating wine and cherishing the moments of sweetness..

2011-01-20T23:36:00.004+08:00

we went to mount faber's sapphire. wow... they have renovated!! it is indeed a nice environment. relaxing one... don't quite like the food there. i think wine company @dempsey is better. i missed the lava cake!!! did not have any dinner and we started our first bottle of red wine. i chose the first bottle. kinda light but good as a starter.

he chose the second.. i like.. hee... he told me alot about himself and i am starting to know him more. after that he drove me home and we chatted for a long time at my house downstairs. told him i was super upset then (that time he told me off), he hugged me and i felt so blessed... i know what he means. yes i do...

on his way home, he was stopped by TP and was escorted home. i really didn't expect that he will be stopped especially on a thursday night..?? i am sorry.. i meant it. you may feel sorry maybe cheap but please feel the sincerity from the person then you will realise that sorry is not that cheap after all.

thanks for tonight.. i really treasure the moments... :)

sweet lunch yet again...

2011-01-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

we went to lucky plaza to have fried chicken rice, the one which i used to patronise frequently while working orchard last time. he ordered chicken breast meat.. -_- geez.. i would prefer not to have that man.. anyway, the taste is still the same. after i told him, i don't like breast meat, he removed the bones of the chicken wing for me to eat.

ooooo.... peeling prawns i have seen.. removing chicken bones.. first time. haha.. it is really sweet of him. thereafter, we went to have tea at coffeebean.. feels really happy and enjoyable. i have always love the way he behaves off work. he is really a sweet and cute guy. at work, he is forever so stern and serious. heee...

should i or not?

2011-01-19T01:11:00.003+08:00

went out for dinner with angie, jamie and dallas. angie talked about my colleagues (which i dread talking about them). dallas apparently was shocked. yah... sad case but it's true.. he could not believe there are such people around. those who can complain as though the whole company is owned by her. those who can 'bark' like a dog, so irritating which i feel like slapping her. (won't happen 'cause it's still within my tolerance level.) all the fake people. can't they just mind their own business and do their work instead of disturbing others? god, pls open your eyes and look at these people...

angie was telling me to go back to sales where I started out. in fact, this has been on my mind for sometime. Awww.. now going back.. am i going to waste my past 3 years then? for me to go back to sales, i would hope to work with LW. think we can work best together! somehow, im sick of my job right now... the reason why i would leave - unhealthy environment. i do not deny there is work-life balance here but the environment sucks! despite there are nice people around, but it just takes 1 irritating person to destroy your whole day!.. will seriously consider this...

Oh yah! Foi is at Frankfurt now! hopefully, she can get my stuff there! heee...

time to KO... Zzzzzzz

needs to inject positive ions...

2011-01-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

my mood has been on moving up and down these weeks. somehow, was on the downside earlier days.. today, after my mc on friday, i have a bitch asking me to reply her email which is sent on thurs, 5plus 6? either you do not have common sense or you have no empathy for someone who has just came back from her medical leave. i do not expect you to ask me whether i felt better etc but at least use some brains to think! i have left at 530 on thurs, do you think i can reply your email on monday morn? idiot! i always believe in karma... it may not be your time yet.. soon will be.

had late lunch today.. went with him and my 2 other cols. i feel he might be blunt to her on grumbling on her projects but he emphasized the point why she grumbles on others now, when she made me stay up late to help her. somehow, i can feel either he is righteous (unlikely, he is the kind who will not interfere in other ppl's stuff) or is his way to protect me...if the latter, i appreciate.. thanks. :)

i have been trying to tell myself, must buck up!! you will be the 'legend' once again!! i really hope too... must have faith, not leave everything to fate! gambatte!!

a dream that painted my day blue....

2011-01-16T23:58:00.004+08:00

had a nightmare last night... i dreamt of someone i love, had a mishap while we were playing jet-ski (which i doubt i will). i was totally devastated. i cried badly in the dream till i woke up. my eyes seemed swollen. it feels so real. though, i did not see who is the person but it was very depressing. somehow, affected my mood for the rest of the day. feels so emo...

many thoughts flow across my mind.. the first time a guy put a ring on my finger... (now i realised that it takes alot of courage for a guy to buy and put the ring on a woman's finger) how i got my first job.. things that happened there. how tough for me to get my degree while working.. why i switched industry.. how fun and tough sales was.. how i knew him.. how we got together.. how tough it was.. why we parted.. till i met another.. and ended badly.. i would never want to see him again... i do not deny i was very happy then but seemed like things just do not end happily ever after.. am glad i am still contact with the earlier.. despite having to meet another now, every weekend seems like a torture at times yet i do enjoy the lazing feeling alone at home.. doing my own stuff.. cleaning my room.. meeting friends out for tea and dinner..

saw HL's pics on fb and im happy for her. she started dating much later.. has been with this bf for a number of years and i guess they are going to get hitched soon.. the first one and the last.. :) have been going in circles and am tired.. i understand what Angie meant by her heart is 'dead'.. sooner or later, mine too... sometimes, it is just abit too much and tiring. seems like a roller coaster..

after much said, being healthy is always the most important. today's a gift, tmr is a surprise.. god bless..

when things are simmered down...

2011-01-14T17:12:00.011+08:00

he sent me a long series of msgs.. on what has happened recently and apologised. If he really says sorry, he means it. after reading them, felt that my BFF has really spot on the cause of it. he is under stress from what is happening as a sales person. he used to be a top sales and now trying to achieve the achievement then and beyond is tough. i can understand... which is what i am facing now. endless compliments and awards I have gotten then and now.. seemed like i am trying to pick up the pieces to move on and be back on pace where i used to be and trying to be better..

though, it is not nice to be blasted at when you do not know what is going on... i guess different people have different way of handling stress.. still trying to recover from the aftermath 'volcano eruption' which happened past few days... :(

oh well, i just hope the bitches at my workplace can be out of my way and let me work hard to excel here. im giving myself 1 to 2 years' time to achieve my aspirations and goals that i have set for myself prior to coming here...

On a lighter note, I am currently planning for 4 sessions of Lo Hei for CNY for my 4 groups of friends and colleagues.
1) my batchmates
2) my previous company's colleagues
3) the Bitch club (my previous company's colleagues)
4) my friends

They are looking forward to my email invitations. Guess I am still the appointed organiser yet again! haha... Loved to see my friends around me happy and enjoying themselves. Now, I am sourcing for a nice and comfortable place.. Thinking of going Mouth Restaurant at Chinatown point. Went there before.. think was last year.. they served rather decent food.. waiting for them to send me the CNY menu though.. heehee.. Oh yah, found out from FB that one of my distant cousin is married. Congrats, MY!!! :)

thanks xx for your concern.. appreciated lots.. and always...

Tears won't stop flowing...

2011-01-13T20:21:00.006+08:00

After last night, I thought things will be fine today... Waited for him for lunch today.. While rushing to office to get my wallet n stuff for lunch, replied him short n unclear answer.. Resulting him not knowing where to wait for me. He gave me a big lash... Was shocked. He told me off on my work stuff n me. Things he said really upset me alot. Told me go back to my previous company if I'm really that good there. Said till I'm really damn lousy. Do you know I'm already trying very hard to learn as much as I can? It's really not a good learning environment here...

Thereafter, one of my cols (the one who shouted at me earlier on), told me I was very rude to my clients when I talked over the line. Im like huh??? I dont think your clients will be chatting and laughing with you if you are rude. For god's sake, I have never seen a sales person shouted loudly at a client over the line and damn you did it!!! don tell me about whether i am rude or not when I have never shouted at a client before. save it man! no wonder why you are not married now.. as the saying goes, there must be a reason why women are not married in their mid-late 30s. (karma!!! shan't say too much.. haha)

felt really upset over the two incidents, thus I left office as soon as i have cleared my stuff. didnt tell him that i have left, guess he is still 'heated'. while waiting for my bus, he msg me and told me he was waiting for me! err... i did not know man. haha.. things just don seemed right the whole day!

What an awful date....

2011-01-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

Was having this headache since morning. was late meeting him due my boss who overrun her previous meeting... why would i want him to wait in the first place... haiz.. In the meeting are my 2 bosses... really have no idea how would they think of me, leaving when the meeting has not ended... though, they asked me to leave first. Don't care much...

I knew he's hopping mad... Whatever i said seemed wrong.. Thus, kept quiet till he simmered down. Anyway, awhile later he's fine. We went to watch 'The Tourist'. It's really a nice one. Was kinda touched. very nice storyline... I would reccomend this movie as a 3 1/2 popcorn rating! hehe...

the top up of cashcard made him mad again.. when he thought of he could have topped up while waiting for me earlier on.. Geez.. whats wrong with him??? in the end, we went home without having dinner... great!

Feels slightly 'tired' but thanks to XX...

2011-01-10T23:59:00.002+08:00

Just want to say thanks again, XX.. Your call n chat made me feel better.

Things may not be easy as it is, I just want to say, yes I am happy... Do not know what lies in front but just cherish the times now. Life is short, in matters of heart, I do not want to read too much into it. As what XX says,' Just follow your heart'.

Let time show me the way to go...

feels so fortunate...

2011-01-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

Something sweet to end off my day.. my ex-bf's cousins added me fb and msg me as well. there's one is already in my fb. i happened to bump into him today when i was rushing to my another office. wished him happy birthday over fb. he told me he misses those mj playing days... haha... so funny.. though his cousins are all very young, but they are fun and willing to learn. :)

the other one, now studying at nyp. added me today. felt so touched... and loved. though, i am no longer with my ex-bf, they still initiated to keep in contact with me..

I feel so fortunate... i believe i have god's blessing... to have such good fortunes... :)

Overloaded with work yet feels happy...

2011-01-07T21:07:00.003+08:00

Worked till the latest at 8pm today.. It's common at the previous company though. Haha. Still feels happy.. Why? Simply I have colleagues that speak up for me when they see me overloaded. Felt really touched. Adding on to my happiness, ya... is him. When I'm frustrated at work, he will definitely make me smile n move on.. Fast recovery from 'overheating'. I think our colleagues who see him at work will feel he's quiet n serious (like no-nonsense type). Haha..

I had lunch with the boys at my workplace and my BFF. It was a great lunch. We went Tung Lok. Had a sgd 50 bucks voucher. Totally worth it. There's a funny 'north n south korea' debating at our table. Really enjoyable. They r damn humorous. He's very gentle when passing food to me. Asking me whether I want to eat this n that. The gentleness from his eyes.... Oh my... Really can't picture his temper n his gentleness together. Felt really loved. Don't why.. Somehow I felt he can really read my mind. To the extent, how can he know what I'm thinking??

Now on the way home.. Can't wait for my shower n lie on my bed....

busy day... yet sweet and blessed..

2011-01-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

had such a busy day today.. as usual, we went out lunch together. supposed to join the rest but we had things on hand thus left later.. thereafter, we had coffee. he told me about his fishing trip and his harvest.. he showed me the pics... wow.. lots of squids man... impressive..

we talked about where to go for dinner etc... he asked me anywhere i wanna go in particular, when i think back, i realised that i haven been dating for ages.. geez... no idea where to go man... went back to office after that.. rushed my stuff.. felt really drained... but somehow, his so called 爱心茶 did not appear. haha... oh well, its fine... he was tighted up with work. saw he is so busy, i decided to tease him using whats app.. and was smiling to myself. my col started me from behind, luckily ive changed his name in my phn else gone case!

after that, we left work to our second date.. always feels so romantic sitting in the car and raining outside... we went to a blizz restaurant. not very nice dinner to speak.. perhaps dating is always sweet... so it doesnt matter but he is quite particular about food.. he didnt finish this round (normally he does), guess he does not like it. always feels fortunate when im with him.. driving to anywhere does not matter. guess the companion is what matters.. i feel so blessed today.. as in how i would feel blessed... those who knows me well, u should know... :)

be it forever or not... i treasure..

Rather than trying to understand, why not just accept it...

2011-01-03T22:28:00.008+08:00

today, i took a day's leave for my medical checkup. only seen the doc for less than 10 mins, then he tells me, 'see you next year!' wow.. that's easy.. haha! went to replace my driving license. I came across this nice quote when i was queuing at TP.

‎'True friendship is like sound of health, the value of it is seldom known till it is lost...' - Charles Caleb Colton

Inspector called me in the morning and asked me about the whole theft incident again.. i should have recorded it down when i was taking statement then. this whole incident is making my life on roller-coaster... urghh.. when can they nab the boy? it is coming more than a week, i think the chances of me getting back my items are nearing zero... :(

today, i was thinking to buy back my favourite Senheiser earphones. i was shocked that it actually costs around sgd 100!! why didn't i feel the pinch then? faint... oh well, u have to pay for quality.. best thing, it is out of stock! i will check around my workplace tomorrow.

he is on mc for 2 days. best is, he is not feeling well and he is heading for fishing trip.. as my title goes, 'Rather than trying to understand, why not just accept it...' i didn't ask him why but he did explain himself. im sure he is old enough to take care himself. i feel anyone won't appreciate nagging so just a few statements of concern will be sufficient. :) i mean, there are times i was so sick but i just drag myself to work. my colleagues asked me why.. but sometimes there's no reason as to why you do certain things.

for him, i guess he enjoys it, so be it... :)

feeling so lazy on the first day of 2011

2011-01-02T13:06:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 12 plus today after my countdown gathering at Jerin's last night. had nice steamboat, gift exchange and played games. after making the police report, i reached home at around 4am in the morning... damn tired. have not been staying up so late. mommy asked sis n me out for lunch today. we had nice kway chap at the foodcourt downstairs. feels so sleepy.. think i am going to sleep early later.. don't feel like going out man... im still thinking about my lost bag, after received a call from police and nothing else thereafter.. :(

am thinking of buying back my prada wallet.. if u guys, are in paris or europe... pls let me know.. getting it there is definitely much cheaper than sg...

was watching my fave jap drama, Iryu team medical dragon season 3!! love it man...

loving the sweet times...

2010-12-28T21:11:00.008+08:00

Dating is always sweet... though, he is from my office, we kept it low profile. really liked his company. the more i know him, i feel he actually shared lots of similarities with one of my friends. everytime i mention about this, he is not happy. Kept saying I'm pushing him to someone he does not fancy. Oh well...

i have been wanting to watch Narnia since 2 weeks ago. always end up going out with the rest. i told him it is fine. we will catch another one. initial plan for today, was to have fish head steamboat, but we went out for movies after work. he was so determined that he has been looking up the movie schedules since then.. haha. i thought he has given up. he is sweet indeed. today is considered our first 'mini' date. Hee.. At work, he looks serious and matured. when we are together, he is like a cute, young boy that you will never imagine he will behave this way. i guess that is the other side of him which attracts me alot.

we had a small tiff when we were rushing to catch it at Balestier. don like the way he drives, damn arrogant on the road. (even though, he drives a nice car, so?) shall give it to him, let him be. it is his car and he is the driver anyway. although, a few of my friends said the movie was lousy but we thought it was a good one. haha. thereafter, we went for prawn mee. nice one..

the thing about him is, he can't stay up late which means he will ko around 9plus 10. haha... Piggy!

think u are in dubai...

2010-12-26T02:13:00.001+08:00

glad to see you, XX and merry belated x'mas as well.. i see you on and offline... think u must be back at dubai.. guess u have read my previous post.. im very upset... sob....

WORST X'mas ever in my life...

2010-12-26T01:16:00.005+08:00

i lost my new prada bag / wallet and 2 iphns today! feel really devastated.. my winning 4d ticket is also inside, though it's not alot but still something.. thanks matt for accompanying over the line and comforting me. though, he cant go out with me but still talked to me over the line for 1-2 hrs.

i have made my police report and the CCTV has captured the person's face. i hope they will nab the person down asap. i want my things back. cancelled all my credit cards. requested them to mail me next week. i just withdrawn a few hundred bucks and this happened... for those who knows me, i am not that sort who will go arcade.. yes, i went there to accompany my indon relatives and i just left my bag unattended for 2 mins and its lost! i went in at 1917hrs today at suntec's arcade and discovered the loss at 1919hrs which was when the boy made his way out of the arcade. really have no idea why the boy want to be a thief. you are not always that lucky. i have heard from the technician that he was caught before at another place. doesn't he learn his lesson? i have to pay back for the company's phn and my own's. :( i wonder if they would let me wait for awhile to see whether i can get back my phns. will be heading down starhub to get my replacement SIM card.. my old hp uses normal size SIM card but iphn 4 uses micro.. how should i handle this?...

was checking with the police since we have the CCTV of the boy's face, how can they locate this person based on FACE?? he didnt disclose much details but assured that as long as we have the boy's face, they will do their part... ohhh god.. pls help me... i feel very upset.. cant tell my mum else she will KILL me!!! i was briefly calculating.. i think my loss is coming to sgd 5K. oh man...

how i wish there's someone to give me a comfort hug......

its X'mas Eve!!!

2010-12-24T15:47:00.005+08:00

Now, working... feels so sleepy and dozing off ... will be meeting my friends for bbq later.. don know where i am heading but my friend is coming over to fetch me.. I have something on my mind these days which I find it hard to solve.

A situation which I hope I would never be in but still it happened. i have a colleague at my workplace whom i find that I can clique with. however his mood swings make me feels rather confused at times. he is a cancer, by horoscope, a person who will change his thinking and mood anytime when u least expected. should this continue or i guess will take a step at a time..

thought to be rather positive but certain factors pulling me back...

my birthday ... my long weekend..

2010-12-19T21:43:00.009+08:00

i have been resting at hm these days.. went out earlier, bought some nice bedsheets and quilt cover. i love the quilt cover.. its in purple and definitely matches my room colour!!!

i feel very fortunate that i have friends around me that showers me with lots of LOVE!! during my birthday, i have a friend that came over to my place and accompanied me for breakfast.. and he went off to his meeting. felt really touched. XX posted a birthday song on my fb and called me during the afternoon. i felt really loved.. i received many fb birthday wishes from my friends as well. it may appear to be normal for others.. but i do appreciate alot..

Shi sent over a pot of roses together with a pair of pearl earrings.

i did not expect to receive any flowers this year.. it was a surprise for me... another day of rest ahead.. shall rest early today... feels so sleepy now.. and it is only 2230?? ta!

hope life is changing for the better...

2010-12-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

My birthday has just past.. wished for the best for next year.. good health and all my friends in happiness always. organised my birthday party together with xmas party for my batchmates. Nothing beats seeing my friends around me happy... it was quite a last minute decision to celebrate with them.. initially thought to have dinner with a few friends.. haha... hope they have enjoyed themselves.

at work, the cols that I am working with are nicer.. nowadays, i try not to ask my 'mentors' unless necessary. they are not 'willing' to teach me and my other new colleague new things. kept saying they are busy but the things they are doing are much lesser compared to me in my last organisation. either they are not efficient or not they are just taking their own time do their stuff. whatever... i believe I will be able to learn things from the things i am assigned.

life seems to be turning for the better.. be it work or personal life... hope it continues this way... :)

Thoughts n thoughts....

2010-12-07T01:06:00.005+08:00

I'm lying on my bed now..... Came lots of thoughts, not knowing where and how they came about.. Perhaps a relaxed mind will tend to have more thoughts rather than the day. Also, when one is in a positive mood, you will not tend to think much.. I'm not really happy at work now... The environment, people and others.. I tell myself I'm only 2 weeks old but isn't it scary that within this short period, I can actually feel the 'negativity' of the workplace? Nope. I didn't regret leaving my previous organization. The only thing I missed - the strong bonding I had with my ex-colleagues. Never I felt working in such a hectic place and heavy workload, I still feel happy... Thanks to 'Bitch Club'! Haha... A nickname for our group.

Sometimes when I think of my current colleagues, environment and other factors, can't help to feel upset. Now, I understand when u really need a hug n there's noone around, it sucks totally... Geez!

Shall browse my mag before I sleep.... Ta!

爱不单行 ...

2010-12-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人懂怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定在一起的那个人
很多人都像我一个人过生活
爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
用不完身边泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到爱情那个枷锁
爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
爱只有简单笔画却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱是不可数的吗为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
我在等一个人在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信它

Nice dinner and plans for my upcoming birthday...

2010-12-03T00:17:00.004+08:00

today, went to oriole cafe & bar for dinner with phy. nice food and coffee.. didnt eat much, just some side dishes.

Spicy calamari

Portobello mushroom salad.. NICE

thereafter, went shopping around in town.

Nice deco for X'mas...

I accompanied her to Sephora to buy some makeup stuff. As usual, I will be looking for some nice perfume.. Spotted these 2 new perfumes from Loewe.. The one for Men's smells quite similar to Issey Miyake but this is definitely a better choice. Kind of pricey.. Retail price is sgd 159 same for the Woman's. I still prefer Chloe EDP given the price range.

LOEWE AGUA ELLA EDT for Woman

LOEWE AGUA ELLA EDT for Men

I will be having a small celebration at Jamie's place at Holland V. as well as a pre-X'mas gift exchange... Nice!!! Will be sending out invites tomorrow.. kinda tired now.. geez... it's coming 2am.. got to hit the bed... Ta!
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good news today on a supposed 'blue' monday...

2010-11-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i hope the day will come soon... that she is going to be transferred out of my workplace.. hehe... heard this piece of good news in the morning today.. i felt a sense of relief that i do not have to tolerate her 'noise pollution' in the office. sometimes, without this kind of people, office environment can be a pleasant one.

the second piece of news is, despite she sounded unwilling to cover my saturday duty during my birthday week, my old friend, angelin volunteered to cover for me.. thanks gal.. she is really nice. I am not upset that I have to come back to work on that saturday, in fact by her unnecessary remarks. geez...

anyway, i felt really 'loved' by some of my friends. they are really sweet in fact... some commented that they missed my company during training and some said that they really miss me!! nice friends indeed... today had dinner with my batchmates. deep down in my heart, i know one fine day all these will slowly diminish but i do treasure every catchup we have.

I believe god is blessing my life now... he is watching over me and I believe that things will improve... :)

new environment...

2010-11-28T20:20:00.004+08:00

have already been at new workplace for past 1 week, i guess my closer friends would know that i have this b*** at my office whom i dislike. I have no idea what kind of frustration is she facing when the work is not as much as what i was handling before.. her favourite phrase 'training never teach you this meh?' can hear it from her at least once a day. there is so much the trainers can teach us, you cannot expect a newbie like me to know everything from a-z comparing to you facing the system for whole 3 yrs! shall keep my cool... i am sure i will do my part by learning things asap so that she will not be 'bothered' by anyone. i maybe quite quick-tempered when i was at my last job as I was the only person left in my team then, comparing what i was handling then and you? the disparity is poles apart. nevertheless, i know i can do it and she will get it from me if she pushes her luck further.

hmm. shan't talk about her.. anyway, had a nice gathering/farewell with my ex-cols at Jumbo seafood restaurant @Dempsey. I didn't eat much.. not a seafood lover. Quek is flying off tmr to Aussie, all the best to her.. she has really came a long way. i am sure she will be happier there as her parents are there. I will miss her lots! very nice col who i clique well when she came in not long ago in my previous company. basically, i miss my ex-cols esp mel and lw. we agreed on an annual trip every oct. shaoye shall be the person to plan! oh boy, really look forward to that!!! :D i do not like bali personally but my last bali trip was an enjoyable one. company does matter and makes a difference indeed.

on a happier note, i met up with my batchmates (again, yes!) at jamie's place for bbq yesterday. it was an exclusive invitation by her so not many were invited but all came to the yellow themed bbq. all must dress in at least >30% yellow colour. interesting.. love the catchuo with the rest. we talked about our new workplace and we agreed that the batchmates are indeed better cols to work with. haha,

today, was a nice day to rest. went for my facial and my face has spots of redness. pain! especially my nose!! the beautician really did a good job and my nose is blackheads free!! thereafter met up with XX and end off the day a happy one... :)

I believe that things will turn better as time goes by. hehe... :)

first day of work tmr...

2010-11-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

at last after 8 wks of training, im finally on board for work tmr. would like to thank all my batchmates and trainers for their patience and understanding. it has been tough and despite it is over, i do miss the times spent. late nights, lunching in, smoke bombs throwing all over the place and team work.

i can only say it was great back at school for training and i will treasure the times which we have spent together. though, i have confirmed with him that he is married but thanks to him, i enjoyed his classes and probably one of the factors which is why i managed to pass all the tests and assignments.

i look forward in meeting my colleagues tmr and hope they are as fun as the previous organisation's. ta!

Yeh!!! deployment will be next tues!!

2010-11-19T00:45:00.003+08:00

geez... can rest a few more days before i start work.. i can foresee i will miss training days!!! i am already missing it now! my lovable batchmates and trainers... really missed the laughters and fun... mischievous trainer making fun of trainees and trainees trying to 'smoke' trainers.. during assignment assessment, trainer portrayed as nasty client who is hard to handle....

totally unforgettable.. i have been through 2 different banks' training, never experienced such a fun but tough training.. even my batchmates agreed for those who have went more than 2 banks. *hugs* to all...

shall rest tmr at training centre and party at night!!! haha!!!

tmr is my deployment date...

2010-11-17T19:21:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, my training is over. passed the infamous test paper. knowing that i will not be seeing my trainer soon, i bought him coke, his fave drink the night before yesterday. his commitment in work really impressed me. he did not have his dinner and continued conducting a crash course for those who needed it. thus, the coke is a form of reward to him. :)

can tell he is very happy. haha. i bought him coke yesterday again but this time, my batchmate, Jamie passed it to him. he was shocked and taken aback. Jamie told him it is given by me and confirm he can accept. yah, he did and said ok, discreetly.. and walked back to his office. he looked really shy.. cute.

i have no idea whether he is married or not... somehow, i feel it is not nice to admire someone who is married. i feel these 2 mths of training have been fun and educational. really enjoyed alot. XX feels i sounded kinda hua chi but i guess it has been sometime since i admire someone after the last. thanks XX for your concern.

hope my colleagues are nice at branch..

a happening D&D..

2010-11-10T22:35:00.009+08:00

my company's Dinner and Dance was on 12 Nov 2010 and indeed an enjoyable and happening night. was slight disappointed as my reporting manager did not contact me to join my branch's table ... oh well... its fine. what's important is, I enjoyed myself!!! :D

took many pics... if u ask me, what food were served during the dinner, i can only remember there were fish, noodles and mango sago dessert though, it was a 8 course dinner! have no idea what other food was served. throughout the whole d&d, i was going around taking pics with my batchmates. haha.. took pics with my fave trainer. the one i admire lots! geez... he looks charming especially with his cute dimple at the left side. haha.. he is a smart boy man... good at illustrating to those who have lots of ??!! on their heads during his training. he is also very mischievous during assignment presentation and my team has to throw lots of 'smoke bombs' at him but failed 'cause he knows that we are 'smoking' him. hahahaa!!! My whole batch loves him!!!

haha... i think he is the only one who managed to attract me after the last wave. sad to say, the training is going to be over.. don't think i will be seeing him once im deployed to branch. *pouts* Next week is going to be a short week of training. think i will be seeing him another 2 days then im off to my branch.. unless i fail my test! haha.

really look forward to see him everyday...feels as though im back to my younger days of admiring cute guys! so funny!

another assignment passed...

2010-11-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

scored a 8/10 with my team for the FX challenge!! it was fun!! haha.

Our trainer isn't that bad after all instead I find he is quite humourous and fun! He has a pair of small eyes when he smiled he looks like cute cartoon character which I can't recall now. He has came a long way. impressive by his determination. he is around late 30s but he looks as thou he is a fresh grad from uni. cute guy indeed..

i am feeling so sleepy now but i have another assignment for thurs submission... no choice..Zzzzz

Fate not meant to be....

2010-11-08T21:31:00.009+08:00

Today scored a 9/10 for my group presentation!! :D

These two weeks have been pretty tough during training but I'm glad to have nice and fun-loving cols around. Though, some of them have been separated from us due to different job functions, they still come by and chat with us. We have new cols that have just joined us and have been nice as well. I really treasure the time spent with them. I can feel the rays of light shining into the grey period of my life.

I have a close friend, Jamie who has been accompanying me. We can clique really well to the extent that I felt as though we have known each other for years. Haha. She has been my listener and in turn, I have been for her as well. The guys in my batch have been nice. There was one whom I thought he could be a nice option but upon knowing him better, I felt he is a person with high self-esteem and a temper. I know myself very well sometimes I can be quite quick tempered and I can foresee a situation whereby he would not compromise due to his principles. When it comes to argument, it's worst. I do not need a partner that always give in to me but at least, one that will have the patience to tell me where did I do wrong and how should such a situation being handled better. I do not deny the fact that during the whole course of training, he has been taking care of me. Thanks.. Appreciated..

Finally, discovered a 'gem' recently but too bad, he is attached. A charismatic and in fact, a smart one. He is humble and patient too. Somehow, I see some traits of someone in him and yes indeed. haha. Upon chatting with my female batchmates, I realised that some of them are attracted by his charisma as well. wow. impressive!

i guess fate not meant to be... hmm.. i wonder how's XX doing... have not seen him for sometime.. all the best for your interview.. :) shall sleep early today.. think there is another assignment to be given tomorrow. (i feel as though i am back in my uni days.) Zzzzzzzz

at last... iphn4 is in my hands...ON 24 OCT!

2010-11-04T00:38:00.001+08:00

am so happy that i have managed to purchase my desired hp till date. thanks to my company that allows so from the benefits!! :D

Another week to go ..

2010-11-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

Felt really tough initially when I do not quite understand what the trainers talking about as im not from a financial background (academically). tends to be quite demoralising. however, i feel i am fortunate that I have nice and patient teammates that are willing to spend time to explain to me and to them, no questions are stupid questions. :) thanks, Steven, Julien and Jamie.

Though, I have been working a non sales related job for 3 yrs plus, i felt that to be a professional banker, there are so many things that you have to be knowledgable about and not on plainly products focused. Learnt alot of this training. I really enjoyed myself alot. Glad that the fundamental training has indeed broaden my knowledge and further made me curious to know more. seems like good times do not last, another week more, we will be deployed to our respective departments. i am adjusted to my current lifestyle and soon, have to adjust again.. hmm... i hope my cols will be as fun loving as them and thus, will enjoy my work and time spent.

Today's presentation, my team scored a 9.5/10!!! which is a high score to speak coming from a strict trainer. thanks to all my teammates and im really proud of all of you. teamwork rocks!! :D

got to hit my bed... tired... yawns... ZzzzzZZZ

Slogging as though I'm having an exam...

2010-10-27T00:48:00.003+08:00

There's going to be a test tomorrow...kind of stress.. Though I'm not into sales but it is mandatory for me to pass all the internal tests. Not easy man. Anyway, after this test will be a trip that I have been looking forward to with my ex. cols!!! ;)

Shall go back to the notes now... wooooo..

nice italian dinner at Basilico Restaurant (Regent Singapore Hotel)

2010-10-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

had a long day at training - mortgage. fun but tiring.. calculating this and that scenarios. after that, went to meet up with my ex-cols at regent hotel for dinner. italian cuisine which comes with buffet appetizer and dessert. didnt eat much. haven got the bill yet as my ex boss paid for it first. very happy occasion to meet up with them. tomorrow, another long day to go... woooo..

Nice wagyu beef wraps... as part of the ala carte main course.

super packed weekend...

2010-10-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

fri - after training, met up with my batchmates at clarke quay for dinner and went shanghai dollies. kinda disappointed. the singers cant sing... but the company is GOOOOD!!! around 20 over batchmates went. we had 7 bottles and 2 towers of beer. crazy!!! totally!!! haha.

sat - met up with my ex cols and had dinner. thereafter, met my batchmates (again) and went out to chill. sang ktv.. nice...

today- met my batchmates (yes... again) for mahjong session.. have not been playing hence, really enjoyed! we had dinner at ABC hawker at alexandra. after that, went ikea. i really need to get my racks for my bags man!!! i can see it is 'collapsing' anytime. stocks are out there. guess have to go down to ikea at tampines to get it. kinda tired... now doing face mask and waiting for my hair to dry to ZzzzzZ... i wonder if it is due to late nights these days which caused my face to have a few pimples. sad!! need to sleep early!! haha....

i guess after the training, everyone will be busy with their own stuff. shall treasure this period... :D

another night out with batchmates...

2010-10-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

went drinking and singing with my batchmates. as our class is too big, we have to be split into 2 classes. they waited for me to ko from my class as i started only at 3pm. nice...

we met and went to boat quay. had altogether 2 towers and 3 jugs of beer... crazy!! only 4-5 of us for drinking. drank and sang till 2-3am. as its quite a hassle to wash hands after eating the chicken wings, one of the guys went to wash his hands and actually, removed the bones for us. impressed.. haha.

luckily, my training starts at 3pm tmr.. :D

enjoying training till date..

2010-10-13T01:50:00.002+08:00

went for training in the afternoon today. love the 'honeymoon' period now... though my batch is rather big, like 55 people but we are always very proactive in activities after training. ya.. as usual, i am one of the organisers. haha. don't know why but i enjoy planning for bonding activities! :D

after training today, i went to meet my ex cols, LW n Q. we went for nice dinner and chatted till 10pm. i will be joining them for the upcoming bali trip!! oh boy, im damn excited!!! have not been traveling for the past months and now there is a chance!! with the people i clique with!! hehe... though, i have said not to go bali again as it was not a pleasant experience the last time but i guess with this group of friends, should be FUN!! did not book with them for the promo price, its like coming sgd 300 for a 2 way trip. I have to book with jetstar for one way to bali and book airasia back to sg with them. hmmph..

tomorrow, my training is in the afternoon again and will be heading down raffles to pass my ex cols some gmart stuff which they bought. guess will be lunching with them before my training starts. i really miss them.. sobsob...

i am still wide awake now.. think 'cause i woke up late today.. haha... shall spend sometime surfing gmart... here i come!!! ;P

enjoyed busy weekends with cols..

2010-10-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

sat - went for dinner at oriole cafe at 313. nice place with very good food. went to retrolicious concert with my ex-cols! was a fun one. though, i do not listen english songs as much but retro songs are fine. there were 3 artists. nice one. went out till 2 plus in the morn.

sun - met my batchmate, Jamie and ex col for high tea at Shangri-la. nice desserts there. love it! :) thereafter, went for a massage session. we went robinsons quay for an italian dinner. now, im aching over.. guess the masseuse used too much strength. can feel the bruises at my back, i prefer thai massage.

talked about lots of our own stuff. heard from one of them that guys love to find young gers these days. suddenly, remembered someone told me that my ex bf's only 20 yrs old. hmm.. ok. interesting...

had TWG's camomile (honey and vanilla infused), very nice taste. have not been sleeping well these days. hope will have a nice sleep later...

Truly inspired..

2010-10-09T01:38:00.003+08:00

today at training, we have this trainer by the name of Gabriel. Shan't indicate his last name here as he is of a certain social status in Singapore. he really made training enjoyable. he does not have a good health but he has been positive towards life. he shared the importance of wealth and health in life and cannot do without the other. this is what i agree as well.

he openly declares he is only interested in guys. cant help to feel he does have the charisma which is very attractive. today is the only day which my batchmate and I do not feel sleepy in class. he has been with the organisation for more than 7 years. he shared that the organisation cares for your career path as in where do you want to move etc. sounds nice thou he is not the first person who said so.

looking forward to his classes... :D

happy on first day of training but received a piece of news...

2010-10-06T22:44:00.002+08:00

i can only say im super depressed now....

how i spend my last day of bumming...

2010-10-06T00:04:00.010+08:00

early in the morn, one of my clients called me asked me to wake up for tim sum. we went Hua Ting at Orchard Hotel. The tim sum are nice and different from other tim sum places. siew mai and the custard bun are nice. supposed to meet another client but he is busy today. shall meet next week. he is nice and wished me all the best for tomorrow.

i have mixed feelings now. feels excited about tomorrow yet worried. my ex col called me today and reminded me of the scary training she has gone through. hope it will be fine. can't help to have the anxiety feeling. wanted to find someone to chat.. but seemed tough...

was reading the love story between MM Lee and his wife. can't help to feel sad but their love is worth my respect. even though, she was bedridden for the last 2 years, he has been by her side at the end of everyday to read her daily news, poems and chat. he is indeed a devoted guy and as for his wife, she can be for greater things but she chose to be behind his man for the past 60 over years. supporting him by taking care of her family, business and giving advice when needed. she is like his consultant. a true confidante, partner and wife. envious of many.

all these years, i have been hoping to find the someone who can just be by my side, listen to me when i needed a listener, share my joy and laughters and cheer me up when i feel down. cook for him when we do not feel like eating out. see him smile when having my food. whenever i feel someone is the one, somehow unexpected things will happen. why is fate always making fun of me?

i remembered the first experience i have had was quite a no. of years back. we started as friends then couple, split and met up years later, split again. it was a painful experience for the first time. do you have a feeling as though you were walking on a rainbow with someone? yah, it was the feeling then. everything seems in place and i felt really loved.

the second, we met through a mutual friend and felt we can click somehow. he is a sweet guy. i remembered he packed lunch for me when i do not have time to go out for lunch at work. he is very good at expressing himself in words. the things he wrote can really make my day when i hated going work. everyday, i will look forward to knock off and meet up with him. things were complicated then as he was still settling stuff. i have trust in him that things will be settled soon. :) he had a change in career, things were fine initially but drifted apart eventually as i did not join him out when he is back.

the recent, i met him while working in my last organisation. he has a nice voice and was very helpful. when things were not working out at work, he will cheer me up with gifts and flowers. i think he gave me at least 15 bouquets already. he is really a lovable guy. always have the koala smile and i really love to see him smile. he is huggable but i guess not now as he slimmed down quite a lot. things have been blissful till recent. somehow, he has things that he has kept in his heart all these while and did not share with me. yes, i maybe insensitive at times but communication is vital in a relationship as well. this is really a hard fall following the previous two.

i thought i have reached the 'terminal station' of relationships but seemed like i have alighted at the 'bus stop' instead. i am really tired and upset. i feel as though i have fallen into a well and looking out at the sky seemed dark and gloomy...

another day back to my routine...

2010-10-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

went out with mum in the morn today. she wants to go a temple pray for my sister at Amoy street. we had lunch there. had a very nice fish curry (though my stomach has not recovered) at this store which is quite well known, located diagonally opposite Amoy food centre. i went to buy iced coffee at a store by the name of 'Coffee Break' in the food centre. taste is even nicer than the iced hazelnut latte i have at Starbucks. thereafter, we went to chinatown to purchase some daily necessities.

felt kinda sad when i go there.. these days, i am been feeling down. sometimes, it is hard to put in words when things are not progressing. there isn't anyone by your side to accompany you when you are alone. at times, when you feel like watching movie or go somewhere to have a better meal, because of mood, you will just settle down for a simple meal or bread and iced milo. ya.. that's my lifestyle these days. shades and tones of grey. i wonder when the rays of rainbow will shine into my life again...

two of my clients wanted to meet up with me tomorrow for meals and drinks. geez.. shall have a sip or two. they have been very nice to me when i was with my previous organisation. initially wanted to go for a short trip but then, noone is free. guess most have plans already. hope to be able to travel soon..

stomach feels weird...

2010-10-03T03:04:00.003+08:00

can't sleep thus shall post...it was a warm evening earlier on. i went for buffet dinner with my frd, phyllis at Mandarin Orchard hotel, triple 3. geez.. its kinda pricy man. we just sat in as she cant walked anymore. didnt have much food as stomach felt weird (even till now). the desserts aren't that fantastic. kinda disappointed especially at the price we are paying...

i donno whats wrong man... i feel like my stomach is tossing now!!! great and its raining now.... a good weather to sleep yet i can't sleep. must be the tea i have had... bored. -_-

feeling down...

2010-10-02T02:46:00.006+08:00

finally, i managed to switch to starhub for my ISP. they will be coming to deliver the cable modem and router. on top, they will be giving me discount on my hp lines, cable tv and internet. cool. should have switched to them long time ago.

though had a fun dinner earlier on, felt kinda upset now. wanted to clear up the television area for the starhub guys to set up my modem but mum would not want me to as I have already washed up. felt so bad... from there on, thoughts came into my mind, one after another.. why am i still a burden in my mum's mind even till now? for what has happened recently, i know she must have felt very disappointed in me. sometimes, in order not for her to worry about me, i will say everything is fine even though, i do not feel so. i hope she will feel better in that way. hope one day i will be able to make up to her by passing her how much she is earning every month so that she can rest and relax at home. if she is afraid she has nothing to do, she can go take up some part time job. i know she will still continue to work.. seeing her work so late and dozed off on the sofa. felt kinda sad....

hope things will turn for the better for me and thereafter, mum's as well.

Enjoyable gathering

2010-10-01T23:04:00.005+08:00

just came back from a gathering at SINMA (geylang lor 3) to celebrate children's day with my ex-cols. really missed them so much. they are so caring and loving towards me. definitely will miss mel, LW, quek and ooi. had crabs, clayfish, tofu, vege and yam.. haven had such a big spread for a long time.. used to have this kind of spread often. hope my future cols will be as fun as them....

a nice spread and company...

nice farewell gift from my ex boss...

a wallet which my ex-col airflown from milan.. :)

a longchamp bag bought overseas by my ex-col's frd... :)

one of my fave watch brands... this is genuine.. ;D

counting down to the end of my buming days...

2010-10-01T15:23:00.005+08:00

hmm.. another 4 days which is next wed will be the start of my training at my new workplace. did not travel though but had good rest these days. feel like catching a movie soon. have not been watching one for sometime. think it is going to rain again.. it seems like monsoon season. have been raining these days.

met up with foi earlier on, she will be holding her wedding ceremony at swissotel. :) great to hear that she is happily planning her wedding stuffs. i guess when u met the right person in your life, everything just falls in place nicely. when spoke of her past bfs, she felt kinda upset then but her hubby just made up everything that was missing in her life. am happy for her...

will be meeting my ex cols for dinner later to celebrate Children's Day! haha!!! so funny! idea came up by my buddy TM at work. kinda miss them..

these days have been dreaming of the weirdest things which i do not know why. hmm...

hope my upcoming training will be an enjoyable one... :)

high speed fibre surfing!!

2010-10-01T02:40:00.002+08:00

i was so excited about the high speed surfing till i checked via www.opennet.com and realised that my block will only be optical-fibre ready next year, dec 2011 - jan 2012. :( the download speed can be up to 200 mbps and upload speed up to 100 mbps!! how much i am paying now which is for download speed 10mbps, i can subscribe for download speed of 150 mbps (high speed fibre surfing). geez...

now, i am planning to change my ISP. think going to change back to starhub. felt that their network does not drop intermittently like singnet. need to call them fast. wanna settle all these stuff before i start work next wed... kinda lazy to go back to work though it is training, heard it is tough.. will try to enjoy.. :)

finally, the 'headache monster' is gone! was feeling terrible in the day. had to drag myself to find food.. sad.. what to do. noone is home.. what a good time to fall sick when i am not medically covered by any companies!!! -_- now i am so used to sleep late.. i wonder how am i able to wake up early for training... haha...

today is Children's DAY!!! A day which i have always looked forward to when i was a kid. i do not have to go school and the day before will be celebration whereby no studies as well and just sat at assembly hall to watch performances!! fun!! remembered those days were easily contented, not much of worries, life is simpler indeed. :) childhood is really memorable..

bad headache!!!

2010-09-30T15:40:00.002+08:00

woke up this morning... trying to find panadol at home for my headache, shocked that i cant find any traces of panadol at all.. :( thus, quickly washed up and hurried down to the doc's. wanted to get porridge for lunch, the store is not opened. how terrible it is. decided to go home and rest.

felt better now but my head still feels slightly heavy... feels like eating porridge now.. :(

Just cleared up my room!!!

2010-09-28T05:10:00.004+08:00

The commitments i have earlier on, i have completed 80% of them. just the curtains!!!!

1) get a TV rack - fixed up already (rem that my frds bought for me a DIY tv rack)
2) clear up the corner in front of me for my TV (done! - tv nicely placed on a tv rack in front of my bed)
3) call starhub to fix another set top box in my room -don need to call, cable point is there, only need to collect my set top box
4) curtainS!!!! - have to check with mum how to fix the curtains
5) throw things - done! 13 rubbish bags!!!

Cant imagine i have thrown 13 rubbish bags in total. now, my room is neat and tidy. it is already 5am plus and im still wide awake!!! think 'cause i slept too much today. hehe. later on, have to go tampines to collect the set top box and buy an extension cord for my room. Think i need to get a radio as well. used to have the habit of listening music before i sleep. after that, meet foi for tea or dinner, then meeting my frd later at night for tea. have cleared up abit at living room as well. its an achievement!!!

fortunate to have mum around to help me on her off day. :) im having backache and knee pain now and pasted 2 salon pas... -_-||| its a sign... either i do not exercise or not, otherwise... Shhhhhzz... got to sleep... Zzzz....

watching F1 at home...

2010-09-26T19:31:00.004+08:00

now watching F1 LIVE at home.. ordered mac as I am too lazy to go out for dinner. ordered this cinnamon meltz from mac and it tasted heavenly!!! wow!!! should try if you have craving for desserts after dinner. keke.

cinnamon meltz

wanted to go chinatwn and buy some daily necessities but sis came back home late. shall go next wkend, cant carry much if i go alone. need to buy my kose facial products and my tsubaki shampoo / conditioner. :) donno whats wrong with my safari browser. cant load FB. :( only firefox works! weird. was sorting out my insurance stuffs, realised ive misplaced my policies!! got to get my insurer to reissue for my reference. need to buy 1 more insurance before i reach 30. the earlier i save, the earlier i will get my payout. hehe.. planning!! feel like watching donnie yen's new movie.. geez!! saw so many posts on FB that he looks sexy etc. wahaha! the race is starting soon.. hope it is an exciting race this year! :D

first day not working...

2010-09-24T23:30:00.005+08:00

woke up early in the morn. still not used to wake up late, though had enough sleep but somehow, feels kinda bored without the company of my fun colleagues.. starting to miss them already. 2 of my cols msg me today and told me they have started to miss me... sob sob.. am glad for one of my cols that she managed to get an outstation permanent position. :) i think i am the only one who left the branch this year who got the most gifts!!!

all my farewell gifts....

went out to do my hair today and signed up a package. starting to regret man. oh well, what's done has been done. last time used to think about this and that, now im alone nothing much to think about. had lunch at mac and dinner at swensens alone. geez. swensens' caesars salad's standard dropped to the max. they only use minimum romaine lettuce.. and mixed with other veg which tasted weird.. i think i can make better salad than them. went to starhub. no stock for iphn again. cant believe it. i wanna change my hp for so long since december..... FAINT. hope the phn comes in fast. at least i won be bored when im on bus...

first farewell gift received.. last day tmr..

2010-09-23T00:55:00.005+08:00

Hmm.. I've completed my 1 mth's notice at last. Just another day more. I was surprised by my PB(a nickname for one of my cols) for the farewell gift. He bought on his own. pretty touched. at least i felt appreciated.

A gift which i have not expected...

nice cardholder

words that showed his appreciation towards me...

Thanks, PB! goes to show. its worth it. after tmr, i have to think what I wanna do during these 12 days ahead. (thought was 2 wks) haha. my foot still hurts. today, was limping around in office especially when i am on heels even worse. I cant even walk properly. think i better go see sinseh on fri. i am very sure i will miss some of my cols. wait till LW promotes, we will come in as a 'package deal'. negotiated with her already. haha. hope my cols at the new place will be as nice... :)

a busy day... and i sprained my foot :(

2010-09-22T00:45:00.006+08:00

i just reached hm awhile ago. again... 12 midnight... -_-|| cant believe.. the taxi driver who sent me hm earlier on, told me he does not work such long hrs.. im like okie.... anyway, counting down another 2 days.

met up with one of my colleagues at HQ, christabel. she is a very nice lady with high tolerance level and takes things very positively. nice lunch i have had. i have a nickname for her 'ding dong bell' haha.. nice one.. she knows it as well. received 3 emails today and spoke to one of my colleagues. hmm.. i guess this idea of writing cards to those whom is worth for, is much better than the swissroll. all the best to them... will miss u all...

after i ko from work, then i realised that i sprained my right foot. cant walk properly and has been limping at home. :( no idea when it happened.. but how i wish i have someone to massage for me... that would be nice.. hehe... its late and i feel damn sleepy!!!! time to Zzzzzzz

glad that my colleagues are touched...

2010-09-21T00:41:00.003+08:00

batched out the cards early in the morn, hope that i will not miss the first batch run. indeed, my colleagues from 3 HQs have received my cards. i received 2 phn calls, 2 emails and 2 sms till date. my branch cols are jealous why they do not have any cards.. haha.. i will pass them on the last day!!! :P feels so touched when your cols email u to tell u that they are touched by your sweet gesture. proves that my efforts are really worth it. my finger still hurts till now. :( have a few more to write but shall rest for today.

hmm.. seems like this is better than swissroll. :) have one client came by and requested to buy me a dinner. shall meet him next week. kinda busy this week. no idea man... why is a resigned staff seems more overloaded than normal days? hmm... haha. anyway, will try my best to finish my stuff. my colleague was telling me 'don pend too much things' i was thinking 'hey, u think ive got a choice when i have been assigned with so many things to do?' forget about it. no point. some people just do not use much of their brain cells at times. my sister is asking me whether i can bring her go genting or bangkok. probably next wk? im kinda lazy though. haha. haven been travelling nor taken any leave this year.

donno why today i feel as though my lungs are being weighed down. feeling it now. kinda hard to breathe smoothly... hate it. had my 'lunch' at 5pm! don understand why... i feel imbalanced at times. why am i working till 10pm today and having my lunch at 5pm? i really wonder if i continue to work in this way, will i collapse one day and my heartbeat stops? hmm...

at last, done for most..

2010-09-20T00:59:00.006+08:00

my middle finger is swollen due to the pen pressure from writing. looks as though there's a lump at the side.. left with only a few cards.. shall write tmr. yah. maybe it is easy to just send an massive email out and say 'goodbye' but i feel it is more sincere by penning your thoughts to the person you are addressing to. maybe tough on me but its the thought that counts. hope that they appreciate. now my back hurts. i guess due to sitting up straight for long hours. i have been in same position since 7pm till now. 6 hrs!! now im resting on my bed with my pillow supporting my back.. feels better.. needs a massage soon. used to go bkk frequently for shopping and massage. not this year. somehow, due to work and bkk sometimes is in a mess. nah...

i feel pretty upset counting down to another 4 days till i KO from work totally. i will miss q, lw and mel.. sob!!! they can still joke abt it! hmmph! sometimes feel like talking to someone abt it. guess i can only write it here. :) nvm. hope my last few days at work will be enjoyable and fun.. cheers!

just finished writing most of the goodbye cards...

2010-09-19T21:14:00.004+08:00

haven been writing much and now my fingers are slightly swollen. wanted to order nice swiss rolls for my colleagues but not possible on the delivery part. thus decided to pen down in a form of card and batch to everyone of them to communicate my appreciation to them. its sad to leave my colleagues after working 3 years plus here. what to do.. i have no choice as well. do not want to waste anymore of my time.

have finished writing 50 over cards. waiting for sis to bring back another 20 to write for my branch colleagues. hope to be able to complete them in time. wkends are over again... after this thurs, i will be super free. can get lots of sleep and watch tv all the way. haha. kinda bored though. maybe meeting sarina. actually wanted to go over aus, but decided not to as it seemed like a relatives' trip..nah.. forget abt it. my poor fingers slightly trembles at times now.. :(

mid autumn festival coming... next wed... wondering should i go walk thru the lights at chinatwn alone? sounds pathetic huh... but really feels like going... geez...

fulfilling sat..

2010-09-19T00:03:00.006+08:00

had a long sleep and woke up at 1plus. supposed to wait for a mooncake delivery, last min unable to make it. decided to acc my col/frd to buy her nice bag at Dempsey. La Prendo. worth buying from there. retail price around sgd 2.4K, she got it at sgd 1.7K. i saw one prada wallet. its nice.. pink but my frd says the colour will come off and there will be black spots.. really like pink thou. she asked me whether i have frds travelling paris / europe.. haiz.. nope. 'cause it will definitely be cheaper there..

after that, we met our col at wheelock and went to marriot for parma ham pizza(yummy!!!), calamari and lychee tea(nice...). went to shop at taka and we parted. i bought some cards for my cols as my last day will be next thurs. thinking of writing some cards for them. :) was counting earlier on. I have ard 70 cards to write!! faint*.

asked my sis acc me watch "grown ups", a comedy with words of wisdom. being together is the initial part of a relationship and most impt part is knowing each other in depth. though its understood by most, but unknowingly, in a relationship, one will take the other for granted. being married or not, one should keep this in his mind that never to take one for granted. be appreciative of each other. before you know it, may be gone..

Martin's chalet on 11 sep

2010-09-12T19:50:00.008+08:00

Have not been joining this group of frds for sometime for their gatherings etc. I am glad that they still remembered me and thanks Martin for inviting me. I didnt know that it is actually Jerin's birthday celebration as well till 230am when im there. haha.

they have prepared cake and the bbq food in advance. had very nice steak, mushrooms and salmon!! saw my best frd, shi. it has really been the long time since we have last met. i feel happy for her that she is getting married soon. my best wishes to her. :)

played 2 rounds of mahjong, has been 3 months since i last played. i stayed till around 3plus, totally drained.. perhaps 'cause i went back work earlier on. think should be fine for me if i have slept more. haha. thanks XX for giving me a lift when i felt lazy going out of my house...

below are some pics took last nite.

Jerin's birthday

A candid shot

Shi and me being the 'painting' backdrop

Martin & Faizal as the 'trees' backdrop

YG as the 'lamppost' backdrop

is it a good choice?

2010-09-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

one of my close cols called me in last evening asking me how am i etc. heard from her the training at my future company is very intensive and is draining her out. its long, projects involvement, presentations and tests. If you did not make it for the 80% pass rate, you have to go through the whole module again. it sounds like studying man. cant believe it. have heard abt the long training but did not know that the training is such a terrible experience.

it has been 2 wks, guess i did not make it for the pte bank interview. i submitted my resume to another bank. haha. shall see where my fate lies after my current organisation. :)

slept almost the whole day. now i am super awake.. geez.. had cup noodles for lunch and sis cooked maggi for dinner. basically, had noodles for the whole of today. received a call from my col that boss is 'hinting' her to go back for work this sat. she is not returning 'cause she has projects on hand for submission. sad case. really sympathise with her situation at work. don worry gal, i will ensure to refer you whereever i will be if the next workplace is gd.

feels lazy.. actually wanted to go hair salon to do up my hair at noon, but didnt go.. cuz asking me go over australia when im not working end this mth, considering since i have no place to go. its ard 7 hr flt if i take SIA. airfare is around sgd 1.2k+ hmm... accomodation i will not have to worry... sounds gd. i would hope to go japan if you ask me. heard the weather / food is nice...

oh well, hope will get into a better organisation... hehe...

needs to do up my room..

2010-09-09T00:15:00.004+08:00

LIST:

1) get a TV rack
2) clear up the corner in front of me for my TV
3) call starhub to fix another set top box in my room
4) curtainS!!!!
5) throw things

so far, im very comfortable with my bed... room.. aircon.. wardrobe..(seems like not enough space for my clothes...hmmm.) long wkends comin!! changed duty day with my col. for sat. haiz. oh well, no choice, she needs to rush her project.. :) feels like gg out for a spin somewhere.. haha. in my dreams maybe.. :)

deep tots on my journey home...

2010-09-06T21:46:00.004+08:00

a rainy night.. always love it esp it feels cozy in your love's arms.. waiting for my bus back home.. boarded on the bus and found a comfortable seat for the long journey. looking out at the moving traffic. family going home.. couple on the way back from shopping.. working class driving home.. it maybe a routine for most but in fact, the simple things or routine in life is also a kind of happiness.

never did one will feel so only when one's routine has changed then u will realised your life is incomplete. time and time, i have been hoping for simple love. in fact, its human who made love complicated. they tend to think too much which complicates things when things are actually simple. oh well, its human nature.

slowly thinking back how my life has changed for the past few months and years.. love ... lifestyle.. work. somehow, don feel like meeting my frds. during wkends, i will stay at hm to sleep till i cant sleep anymore and wake up to start my day. will lie on my comfortable sofa and watch tv the whole day. perhaps work has been quite fast paced, it is good to slow down and pass my time by watching tv. sometimes, will help my cols to order stuff online. haven been doing online shopping for sometime. used to be frequent but didnt have the mood to shop till i realised that its time to add some dresses in my wardrobe.

thanks XX for adding smiles on my face when its dull. appreciated it. yes.. im emo today... haha.

having headache....

2010-09-05T20:52:00.001+08:00

geez.. after dinner, a sudden headache came up. donno what triggered it but i feel like my head is spinning. haha. am bored now man.. XX also busy.. oh well.. shall go watch tv...

relaxing sat

2010-09-04T21:36:00.002+08:00

slept till 1 plus today. have been telling mum that i need curtains so that my room can be dark and cozy. comfortable... but mum says need to wait for her.. oh well.

wanted to go comex and look at new techs but im lazy. haha. anyone interested? :P

i guess tmr is another lazy day for me..nice....

what a day... :(

2010-09-03T00:15:00.002+08:00

had a super busy day. today had my lunch only at 5pm, had a bump on my head due to a knock from the corner of a table (IT HURTS even till now). the pain is so bad that when i rub it, my tears just come out from my eyes. :( now rubbing the bump, hope will go off. aww... worked till 10 plus 11 pm. 14 hrs job man. its damn tiring. how i wish i can just slp the whole day tmr. anyway just another day to wkends. hang on..

did not get any calls from the bank which im looking forward to.. will they call me soon? tmr is the last day of the wk already...oh well, perhaps i did not perform as well as i thought to be.

my head hurts, causing me unable to slp despite im very tired now. i really need to slp.. guess have to bear the pain. my eyes are closing...ZzzzzzZ..

another wkend past at last..

2010-08-29T22:59:00.002+08:00

had a tiring sat.. went back to work 'cause of some 'urgent' stuff. stuck on chair/bed cos of my menses cramps for the whole day. watched tv and ordered some stuff via gmarket, korea. fun.. i wonder what happened to XXX, mia for sometime already...

peaceful night...

2010-08-29T00:51:00.001+08:00

i hope it will be a peaceful night... didnt slp well cos of the last night. went back to work till 2 plus 3.. totally drained..

oh my....

2010-08-28T03:02:00.003+08:00

the sound of big wind and tree branches moving violently woke me up.... it was so scary as though 'typhoon' is coming in singapore... how i wish i can slp but its damn disrupting and scary looking out from my window...

thinking of chatting with someone online but the names on my msn seemed distant.. oh well, shall try to hit my bed....