pixelated life indeed

as the subject states reflects my life now... my work, love life and career... all are in boxes i.e pixelated... i have always tot my life is complete till i get a better job.. better pay.. now my life is worse than before, no lovelife, no better job, only demoralisation and depression. everyday i woke up finding myself alone and pulling myself to work... i can't slp well. kept waking up in the middle of the night.. donno for watever reason. i can only say.. i still miss him.. :'''(