random tots..

was pondering when i was showering earlier on...

i have always tot that being a gd gf is to take care not only ur bf but also his parents and siblings as well... i loved cooking for him when i feel that fast food and his maid's cooking sucks. when we are at mac drive-in, i will check w his siblings / nephews / parents to ensure they have eaten.. waking up and seeing him by my side is always a blessing for the day.. i guess these are not what he expects from me. i have not fulfilled what he expects from a gf, in a way i have failed.

being together is a blessing.. however to him, it seems like a torture. he seems relieved and happier nw from the comments ive read in fb. i tot he would be as upset as me but seems otherwise. i have never expected our r/s could be so brittle and ended up in such a manner. he has been bottling his unhappiness with me and not discussing me directly. In the end, he burst. in my shoes, i felt that it is unfair. things can be improved when discussed. it is the same like managing a business.

managing a business, needs time and patience. there will definitely be hipcups along the way but when all shareholders come together for meeting to discuss and propose alternative ways to resolve any glitches, it would be perfect and of course, business will prosper and advance to higher heights.

looking back, im sorry to all the unhappiness that he may have gotten from me but i feel there could be a better way to handle and salvage this r/s...