boring essay...

it seems like my whole module is on CHINA. my presentation, my essay etc. i think my major essay will be on china again.. somehow, felt things are changing...my happiness seemed shortlived. i have this feeling he is 'disappearing' from my life soon... losing him... when he is not mine in the first place. noone will understand... insecurity is the word. how to feel secured or assured when ..... noone will feel the same as i do...