I hate my job!!!

I really do not know what kind of fate I am suffering from nw man. Love aside; I am used to it and do not even want to pin hopes anymore. Now, my job! What's wrong with these people man?? My manager went mad and shouted at me over the phone. Customers want to complain me like hell. I have been putting up with all these crap for 3 years! I kept telling myself everytime, it is going to be a better day or I believe that I am able to unite my team. I should have left my job a year ago, at least I do not have school fees' commitment then. Short breaks used to work for me but I beg to differ after my 1 1/2 wks of leave a month ago.

I only look forward to my school lessons which is only twice a week which I can totally relate to when it comes to the management unit. HAHA. I just hope someone can be my saviour and bring me out of this company man. Have been having flu whenever I wake up in the morning lately. Feel so weak and my nose seems to be dropping off. haha. got to rest...

Second lesson of my class

Day 1 was disasterous man! I took the express bus from my house ( I do not like to take MRT by the way due to lack of seats). In the end, when i reached the designated busstop to change for another bus to my uni, i do not know whether to cross over or not..Anyway, i was late for half an hr. Having to be late, I went into the wrong lecture theatre. Only realised after asking a girl sitting in front of me. Terrible day man!! Thanks to Mr Cheng, for a trip back on his way to work else what could have been worse man! At last, got into the right lecture theatre. I was so flustered but saw a welcoming smile from a nice girl. I sat beside her and we became friends. not bad huh? haha. Nice people. Today, knew another nice girl. yah, was slightly late but not as bad as the first day.

My lecturer is a nice lady. She is from Phillipines, was once a radio DJ now working at the BirdPark. Not easy man. Must have been a tough job for her. She is those boss' fave to make the campaign money worth but definitely disliked by most of the advertising agencies for sure. HAHA. Fun class but kinda worried. In another 11 more lessons is my exam. Can't help it.

Today, my cuz came to sg for a short trip. went out awhile with her. she really did put on a lot of weight after giving birth. shocking man. looks like a totally different person. got to ZzzzzZZ. work again....

toking to inner self

have been rather depressed(again) these daes.. do not know why. i really hope to believe in love again but the reality is harsh. he has disappeared like them. im used to it. have been missing jayven lately especially when leon lai's songs come into my mind. mixed feelings. will he miss me? i do not think he wil, same goes for the other. when i listen to songs he sang and sent to me, really kills my brain cells. should i hate him or should i ever think or remember such a person in my life? he left me for the second time, i trusted him again. he told his friends how relieved he was after im out of his life. do you know how hurtful it was when i heard that? nevertheless, i thank god for letting me to know them, realised what is love. kept wondering how should i react should i meet jayven again. perhaps, will be the cheerful me, the way he liked me to be, a princess who is always smiling at him. the latter; i do not think we will ever meet again. for the whole of 5 years, we have never met once in singapore. haha.

yah, the latter is right. im a negative person. but not at work nor studies, its me. insecurities in life n love is what im feeling right now. im glad that i have friends with me to go out and forget the past for that moment at least. i dreamt of one of my ex who has always been by my side recently. despite of his hectic schedule, he still cares for me whether i have eaten or drop by to see how i am. i really like his cute face. the expression i have never seen ever when we were together. i do not know why but only realised recently. haha. alrite. tats abt it. sounds boring huh. but at work, im still the cheery one. the noisy one though i have 'toned down' already. haha. i guess its a type of morale that i should set an example for my staff to see. im not a person with split personality for sure. i would say im too kind. really hope i am not at times. haha. got to rest. ZzzzZZ

a memorable day

just met up with sarina and fanni a few days ago. despite of the rain, we enjoyed ourselves going to the flea market at zouk and the comex fair. had coffee and some light lunch. took some pics....

Zouk's Flea Market!!

Fanni with her new bag!!

Sarina n me making faces while Fanni is trying her belt.. haha

me, fanni and sarina making faces....on way to suntec

at last met up with Anily outside Comex fair

my long awaited off day....

was not feeling well past few days. I can feel that I can't even breathe at times due to the coughing. was thinking of staying home tmr n rest but the idea of gathering my ex cozmates to go out is even better!

one of them called me asked me wanna go to zouk's flea market. felt the idea was rather cool. decided to get the other two to join in. poor fanni, due to the constant air pressure of flying, she has to be on mc cos some medical reasons.. but guess its a time for her to meet up with the others n chat- gers' forte! gonna charge up my digi cam's batt n make sure.. nice pics will be posted here for viewing! hehe

sometimes i really don't what is happening at work, only when my subordinates tell me. anyway, up to them whether they wanna tell me.. though, heard from the others, nothing beats your subordinates telling you. having been in a such a position, i may not gone through alot but still i have learnt quite a bit. dealing with customers is an easy task indeed when you know what options you can give ur customers. dealing with subordinates is no way an easy task. still learning on how to deal with different type of people. sometimes i really feel, im caught in a position i don't even have the empowerment for my subordinates to believe me or should i say respect me. how i wish i do not have to think of all these. really missed the days when i was at my previous store, i really have the empowerment to manage a team rather than now, when i say something, my mgr can just overwrite it n mine became null. my previous mgr believed in me but the present mgr want to be in control of all the things in my store. haiz.

perhaps, i just need someone who will call me or pick me up after work hence, i won't be thinking so much abt work anymore. I believe there will be.. definitely, the guys I had met this year, do not seemed to be able to commit. haha. saw jayven's pics on friendster, seems like he is very much in happiness. Felt that afterall, I should not have gone into his life then. Think he regretted as well. I sincerely hope he is happy. He is the person who taught me how a guy should treat his gf. nevertheless, I will still remember him for coming into my life. It has never been fair, be it life or fate. never.