At last a better day!

today, i decided to talk to 2 of my senior staff. one with an attitude problem, another has been rather slacking. just hope that from the short session with them, things will improve. i want my team to be the best which reflects my leadership qualities as well. though, i may not have support from my managers by i will try my best to motivate my staff.

had a few nice customers, one of the them even want me to be her god-daughter asked me to get items and she will pay for them. haha. too nice to be true huh. another one; is a regular customer whom i remembered her name, she was very touched... i felt its a form of satisfaction. :) mood still very ...... donno why. haha.. ZzzzZ

feeling sluggish

today is my uni orientation day. should feel excited as what my friends say.. donno why i felt rather troubled and disturbed. i have noone to share my joy nor troubles to. someone there to see my smile and laughters. perhaps i am someone who really needs a shoulder to lean on. im used to have jayven for years with a readily shoulder and ears for me to pour my sorrows as well as a person who will cheer me up. how fast time flies, it has been half a year since we last chat online. he is definitely avoiding me, in a way not to let his gf down.

other than him, i still have another guy by my side. just that i have lost him as well after last night. my instincts are always accurate which i hated most. oh well, wat to do. haha. its just my fate for this year. boring, got to drag myself to school, i feel so tired and hope to sleep all the way man. especially my cough is killing me.... :(

time proves everything

it has been coming to a week ever since we met. do not know why, my heart felt rather distance towards him. love can occur in just a spur of moment and vanish within secs. this is my perspective anout it right now. just had a chat with a close friend of mine. told him some stuffs. hope i am really doing him good. i know when it comes to relationship he is bound to be lost at times else miss out certain details, thus hope he really takes time to think it over. guess after this conversation, he will not be dropping by my place in future. he is someone i feel close to whenever i look into his eyes. :) i do admit that i miss him at times but still i hope he takes good care of his health etc. knowing he is a workaholic. i just want to let you know that the feeling of both of us laughing and hugging each other is so heartwarming and sweet. really enjoy the feeling.. passion and affection..

have been having this bad cough since yesterday. real bad one. im left with almost no voice already. sounds awfully bad. just hope i will recover soon. hate the feeling of falling sick and pathetic with noone by ur side to care for you. it is coming to a year ever since my last decent relationship. sometimes i really don't know what's wrong with myself. knowing others are attached yet i still let myself sink in deeper. i just follow my heart in relationships but in the end, i got hurt countless times till i am really tired now.. really tired. hate the feeling of insecurity and loneliness. the guys i have came across are not as merticulous as the ones others met, perhaps its just my fate.

my IBK!!!!

at last i get to have my ibk! thanks to my dearest cuz.. for her credit card.. else i will have to wait for next year. have to pay installments though.. haha.. anyway, im still a bit blur using a totally new processor.. need a coach to be free to teach me.. haha.. hope my dearest mr ivan will be free enough to help me set up my network asap. for me, to move around the hse with my ibk to surf net... haha.. i won have to doze off in front of my moniter already! Oooooo!! gtg rest.. need lots of exploration on my new ibk! ta!

feeling pampered.. ;)

alrite.. met up with sean. we chatted quite abit. yah, he is still as charming. he has very nice dimples and nice smile. i believe he will MIA again cos he is career focused now. haha.

the next thing; met up with him recently. really love the feeling of being led. opening the door and he is just behind you. almost choked while eating and asked if you are okay. he will make sure i am fine and comfortable. he will ask whether what i am thinking about when i looked out his car windows for sometime. this is what i called a caring and sensitive guy. haha. we met up with one of his childhood friend and i was shocked when he suddenly held my hand when we were watching tv at turf city. he gave me a feeling that he really need me by his side. a feeling which i have not had for such a long time already. really liked the feeling of being led. he will tell me to watch out for puddles of water, fearing that i may slip. when eating with him, he will serve food to me, making sure i have enough food to eat and order lots to make sure i must be full. especially that fish head steamboat(which sucks!), he realised it i don't like it when he saw me eating super slow. he told me not to eat anymore and suggested that he will bring me to eat at other place instead. yah, he is one sensitive guy especially caring and sweet. the small little things he noticed and did, really makes me feel comfortable to go out with him. nowadays, guys aren't that sensitive anymore.

today, heard from my colleagues that my mgr blew her top when she realised that the closing was not properly done. hence as usual, warning letters are issued again. i felt rather demoralised when my mgr suggested test to be given and she actually told me that my chief cashier is to come up with the questions. i consoled myself by telling myself, i will have lesser things to be responsible of and do(which i don't like it at all). she does not respect my position at all. to her, i am just a medium for her to pass any msgs across to my staff. its really a drag. told myself, this is a lesson learnt and not to do it in future to come by should i be in a managerial position. lots of lessons learnt here, though negative but worth learning. i wished that there would be more positive actions or lessons to be learnt which will improve myself further.

not going to ponder too much on this, tommorrow will be a better day! Yeh! ;)

STAY POSITIVE!

todae chatted with my polymate, Hui. Thanks to you... think im being overly sensitive n rather negative towards love life. things turned for the better. :)

mr cheng, thanks for replying. we are still friends but behave like before. u just think over the difference on how you treated me in the past n now. u will know what i am talking about. im not assuming anything here. do think over it. a pure misunderstanding and things became different after that. if you want to remain like this as your way of being friends, u will come to realise that your friends will become lesser and lesser. that's all i can say. :)

my friends, from today onwards, i will stay positive on life! i know i maybe negative on love before, not now anymore, there will be a better one coming along and i won't die without one cos' my studies is more impt and my INCOME! hehe... nitez! oh yah! need to fix a date for my VSC gathering...!! guys do make urself free huh! ta!

boring working life..

im back to work. really bores me.. these days not as busy as the earlier month. awaiting for my uni's user id/password for me to access to my study schedule. need it asap for my manager to plan it.

this month, two memos are issued. one to reinstate the staff's morale to work harder in enforcing the internal promotion policy, which i felt rather irony when the external hired managers are more than 75%. only 4 are internally promoted, out of 13. my colleagues even laughed when they read the memo. the things the management promised were not being honoured. the staff morale is hard to be uplifted especially when they send u for some training and u have to sign a service bond and pay back the company if you do not pass(initially), after the matter has been brought to the trainer then it became if u are terminated during the course or resignation. i really do not understand why rules are set which can disgrace to the company and image is the most important for any other company.

hey mr cheng, you know who u are, it has coming to more than a week already since NDP. i have already apologised and explained. i can understand that you will be angry but come on, be a gentleman, u said u are not then be one. i really don't understand why that matter can make u so angry that you can forego our friendship. Since you want it that way, i have nothing to say. take care.

recovering stage...

Me and Bel

today, i met bel at my workplace. such a coincidence. everytime when i am depressed or upset over certain matters, i will bump into her. yah, told her about him. time do not stop for me neither will my life be wasted. im so excited about school!!! shan't think much, will concentrate on my studies.

on NDP, one of my friend came down my place and unknowingly, he came down as well. yah, two guys at my hse downstairs and do not know what to do. Esp i do not even feel like going out. perhaps just feel like sitting in a car and enjoy the breeze. in the end, he told me he need to reply an impt email. i agreed to help him and there, i saw my friend drove by and received his msg. i have already apologised to my friend for turning his date down due to his sudden appearance and the imptance of the replying the email. he told me he is not angry(as if).

only heaven knows...

Ex mdis cozmates' gathering!!!

@ Bugis Pastamania

Bryan, DURAI and dilen(making faces)

the JOY of 'conquering the last piece of pizza he is aiming for...!

Self portrait

C.A.N cafe along Liang Seah Street

my 'sis', ling who is born just few hrs ahead of me...(do we look alike??)

Going for movie @Shaw Towers

Posing for the Singapore's Top Model selection!

Outside the movie theatre for 'Bewitched' we shouldn't have bought the tixs!

Unique Sign found at the exit

really had a great night. we enjoyed ourselves. don't know why, we are still as close as before. C.A.N cafe is a nice place to sit down and chat to relax. The drinks/food menu is not bad. Bewitched is a nice movie. Only for those who want to watch those 'fairy tale' movie. We shall meet up again to celebrate Dilen's MILO birthday bash!!

personality test! ~ 'my hidden talent'

i did this personality test recently. quite true for me.. u guys can try it! ;)

Your Hidden Talent

Here is the analysis:

The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test65.aspx

take it easy...

the air is cleared... he finally said it out that he likes me.. he is those guys who will not even hold a girl's hand even thought he likes a girl. today is the third day that i didn't see him. i really don't like the feeling that 'text communication' is cut off subconsciously. he msg me that he is at his office and he did mention to me a lot of problems he is facing and decisions to make at work. though, i really do not get what he means but appreciated the thought that i am the one who he actually pour his troubles to. not even his pals. i am really afraid.. really afraid he will be like one of my exs who just disappeared... having this fear ever since he is tight at his work.

on a lighter note, today met up with a few of my ex colleagues, val(who is five months' pregnant), kaz, shannon and angelin(though she stays my house, haha). we went for dinner at sakae sushi then val, angelin and me decided to rest over at starbucks with coffee. kaz overworked quite abit, can tell from her 'panda eyes' man, headed home. talked alot; about val's marriage, pregnancy etc. yah, i have nothing much to say as i am not attached. so im the listener... haha..

my leave has been extended till this friday. never rested so long since i started work. will be heading back to books from september onwards. very excited. hope the classes will be fun like my advanced dip classes. ;)

gd times are over...

he has been busy with his work these nites. just felt kinda uneasy. i decided to be the one to declare the end of the good times. i know how tiring and sad it will be if i just continue on like this. msged him not to feel obliged to tell me anything, has been a pleasure knowing him and yah.. last but not least, the times we have shared will never be forgotten. if a guy says he misses you, a minute when he is free, i believe he will come down to meet you even if it's for awhile. today is a sunday. the only day of the week, he will be free to do anything. he just msged me asked me the usual, ' had your lunch?' :)


for those who know me well enough, whenever i feel sad or down, i will be doin house chores, spring cleaning... just finished doing them. now looking 0ut of my window, the sky is so blue... pondering...

A lonely day..

my fave tropical passion tea latte

today,i went to settle my study loan matters, supposed to meet my friend after that, in the end, she can't make it due to her meeting. had my tea latte at suntec's coffee bean while waiting for her.. no calls nor msgs, hence, i decided to walk around. they were having this monopoly event over there. i love playing that! all the time fave!

TOFU OYAKO!

After shopping in carrefour, i spotted my fave kubrick, TOFU OYAKO!! hehe.. so happy! now, i got 2. the jap one and this. really hope that i can get the strawberry one.. looks so cute! it comes as a form of lego, in it there is a mini keychain(on top).in case you guys do not know what is it about.. this is the website http://www.tofu-oyako.com/

My fave Hokkien Mee @bedok interchange

upon confirmation from my friend that she can't meet up with me, another friend msg to meet me for dinner. so happy since i am in town, why not? haha. in the end, this friend can't meet me as well. decided to head bedok interchange to have some hawker food. ah ha! spotted my fave hokkien mee.. with a cup of longan. perfect! back at home.. time to rest. think he must be resting at home, hope he had his dinner as he was rushing some work he has on hand when he msg me. the only day he did'nt meet up with me.. its alrite. really appreciate him for his shoulders for my tears to lay on when i faced troubles while getting my study loan..thanks..

My banner design for my sis' team booth on CCN day 050805

a pic taken by my sis,(of cos, the person posing is not me.)Received lots of positive feedback for my banner and poster design. the ice-cream sales even exceeded the target amount and its a sold out! hehe. very happy for my sis. she showed me the initial poster design. it is rather 'interesting' using the old times' snow white in preferring to eat the ice cream than the apple. (u get what i meant?) anyway, it is rather encouraging to me. seems like its still my interest in my life and ive never ever regretted that i took up visual comm as my dip. :) got to head to dreamland! ZzzzzZZ

the taste of companionship is coming back again...

he has been bringing me around these days. Though, he has business on hand, still he accompanied me till late nights to chat, gave me valuable advices which really makes me think how much this person has been through in life.

Been to Singapore Yacht Club, seen quite a few yacht there as well as a jumbo one. Had a fabulous dinner with a bottle of australian red wine and the bill comes to be 200 over. We had only oysters, goose liver(had before at a jap rest. bt this is better), steak, lamb chop, red wine and tiramisu(I feel not as nice as prego's).

he is the best companion so far, compared to all the guys ive met for this year. i really enjoyed the times shared with him.. seems like i can see light in my path. a guiding light with warm hands holding onto me and advising me patiently by my side. i would not say love cos' i do not know how does love come by n leave neither do i recall... love leaves a trail at the back, be it memorable or hurtful... i have experienced both.. not at the moment would i want to try..

Exploring Singapore

KOI Farm

Last weekend was a great one. Been to places like; KOI farms at Chua Chu Kang. Very big ones and the water was as deep as 3 metres.

Big Sized KOIs!!

The Kois are enormously big which is beyond description. Never knew that they can grow that big.. First time in my life, tried Quail meat.. tasted more or less like chicken wing meat to me. Just that the meat is lesser! Haha...

Mt Faber

These days I have been drinking wines.. Practically, all types of wines. Be it from France, Australia, White or Red.. This is a nice place to drink wine and see the beautiful scenery of Sentosa which is just across the sea. It opens till 3 am every day. Yah, have been hanging out till late nights like 3-4 am every day. Exploring Singapore; to places which is not accessible by public transport. Beautiful night sceneries. Cooling breeze. That's Singapore. Do not ever say no where to go, it is up to you to explore and drive around to discover these places.

Product

Poster

Banner

Finished my sister's advertising campaign's banner and posters at last. Cannot believe the product packaging is done by my junior at school. It is totally unacceptable and tough to market as a premium product to attract STUDENTS!! Nevertheless, I tell myself, whatever products that come to me which needs to be marketed. I am the one which can create and uplift the product image.

So... how is it? Gimme your comments man! Cheers!