YEH! I have defeated m9!

at last, the paper with the most qns is out of my life! haha.. I have passed! I didn't even study much thou. study smart! just felt this year, I may have 'obstacles' along the way in my life but I believe with determination, I will be able to overcome them. :)

i have another paper to go on next mon. my bm is nice to let me have a day off before I start to work. after that, comes my uni paper and I did not even attend most of the lectures.. but somehow, I know how to score for that paper. haha. hope everything goes well. one needs to have hope and stay positive in life, you are not far from your goals and destination. *winks*

spoke to sean just now, interesting.. he is heading middle east to work! I do agree on the part that dubai is blooming over the years and many investors are trying to gain market share over there as well. he asked me abt my status. i felt as if i have gone thru a consultation by a psychiatrist. he commented that spore guys are too pampered and do not know how to think. gosh... can't believe it's from a guy's point of view. I understand where is he coming from. haha. He is afraid I will be left on the shelf... nah.. just joking. i told him that I have never bear any grudges against any guys so far in my life. he must be thinking i have stereotyped all the guys. the truth is, no.i believe that every guy is unique in his own way whether things go the way I want it to be. still stands ;)

can't wait to finish my paper man! haha. think my cozmates gonna miss me.. I am looking forward to my upcoming gathering this sat.. haha... gonna be a fun and crazy night again. geez.. i have yet pass my cuz to repair my digicam. :( got to head to dreamland...training tmr!! hehe. love my colleagues. fun! ZZzzzZZZzzz....

time for gathering again!

most of us are at our designated workplaces, hope everyone is doing well. i know its tough but I believe we are survivors! haha. i missed out on organising the annual poly gathering for last year, a must for this year. as usual, my colleagues are bugging me for gathering either this sat or next. think next sat will be better.

gonna have fun again! rewarding myself! 2 papers to go. 1 paper from uni. oh ya, Mr M is in today! haha. he had an ugly haircut. maybe going to sing tmr. YEH!

another 2 papers to clear..

thanks for the support from my friends. i appreciated it alot. i still receive msgs from my colleagues who are working at their branches and also uni friends. from this hectic exams' experience, i realised that i can really absorb information fast and accurate when im not stressed up. great! now i should be able to study smart! haha.

Maurice chatted with me today. thanks man. the first sentence he said 'what happened to u?' i am like.. uh huh.. my god. he is well informed of my results man. he sat down, talked to me and gave me encouragement. thanks. he is a guy to admire, not a guy to go for. perhaps for me. haha.

anyway, think i guessed wrongly on the person who posted in my tag board. sorry for the earlier speculation. i don think he would bother to read my blog. haha. no matter who you are, i believe only gals are petty creatures. thanks for your comment. i believe happiness comes within myself. so, i am not affected by what you say. i believe in the moment of time with the person you like or admire is, precious and memorable. be it i fall in or out in love, i know i have put in my best for the relationship. though, i may make mistakes but its all part of the learning process. this is what love is all about.

m9 is killing me..

to clarify with what i have posted earlier on. song..'i rather have bad times with you than have gd times with someone else'. 'someone else'; simply means im worse off than a substitute and now it seems im no one's someone else in the end. can't imagine it's from you. to conclude, it's a one sided affair all the while. thanks for your comment. whatever it is, all the best to you.

gone another 84 bucks. i failed marginally. cant take it. luckily, my bm is understanding and supportive. all my friends are supporting me. kel, don worry k. i believe we can make it the next round. :)

damn...

yah i flung another paper again. there goes another 50 over bucks. watever. i really thought i can make it for this paper. this period is really the worst time of my life.

suddenly a song came across my mind, which i saw on my friend's nick. am i the someone else? disappeared from my life just like that. if you still feel for her, why not get her back? procastinating won't do you good. yah, this is me. i hope anyone who walks into my life and out, will be in happiness always no matter where they are and who they are with. (bel pls don nag at me again...opps)

songs... haha. jay chou makes me think of jeff's rap. david tao and guang liang make me think of chris. jacky cheung and ronald cheng made me think of eugene and jayven. songs...a way to relieve from stress, beautiful memories it may be but worth remembering which leave a spot in your heart, never to forget...

thanks guys for your understanding!

dear min, kelvin, chris, hudson and tom,

i really appreciated you guys for your understanding for my absence for the upcoming presentation. I am sorry that I can't be part of the group to present our great work due to my external exam for my job. thanks to chap, adel and lorna for the lecture notes due to my absence for class. i felt really touched and fortunate to have you guys in my class. that is also the reason why i insisted to continue my course instead of deferring it due to my intensive training. although, there are a few times which i didn't make it for my papers at training but having you guys are already a kind of motivation for me to carry on my course. last but not least, i will try my best to clear my papers and catch up with the lectures i have missed. i really missed the company and gatherings we used to have. thanks for everything. *hugs n kisses*

cheers,
ah VaL

some pics from our last training and CHIVAS night...

a DECENT class pic.. haha!


this is what happen when u are too close to your trainees! haha


paul and alvin discussing about the cakes... when everyone is waiting at the back... -_-|||


kawaii desu!


for once! 'alexis(fyi, im referring the guy) is NORMAL! haha (clarify abit, he is attached with a ger but he behaves like a gay in our class BUT we LOVE IT!)


here's adrian and andy.. are they er.....?



lots of gay activites in our class. but all are straight. no worries. haha.

at last, i passed...

yo my dear friends! i have passed one of the papers at last! i didnt study much for this paper man.. cant believe i can pass. guess im lucky, tats why. thanks for everyone's encouragement and support. really appreciated it... all your hugs, kisses and msgs.. haha.

i will miss you guys alot.. though, some of us are heading down to our respective branches but i believe we will be in close contact and i shall be the one to link everyone together! haha..

have another 3 papers to clear next week plus my presentation... uni exams.. again... this is my life... haha!

there it goes again...

i did not sleep well again. hence, contributes to my headache in the afternoon. i can't concentrate. luckily, i went down to find lorrain. she is very nice. she talked to me, asked me to cast my bk aside and try the mock questions. i decided to move out from the 'cold' room to the pantry. a better place indeed.

thanks to T; for your support and comfort. bel and my close friends as well. i flung my paper again. cant take it. i was very confident of the paper. it was so easy. guess must be careless mistakes. :( this time round, i cried real badly. even my friends are at a loss. think its a emotional break down for me. oh yah, my colleagues are kinda sweet to drop a msg esp. him. haha. true enough, do not perceive guys from the way they look. just hope he will still be the same down the road. people do change due to job hazards. you are a sweet guy. keep it that way. :) thanks everyone.

feeling upset and demoralised...

i failed one of the external papers. really put in a lot of effort and my tears just ran down after i knew my results. perhaps i should ask myself.. like what jeff said, 'am i in the right industry?' i am impressed by my fellow colleagues that they passed. i have another 3 more to go. msg my bm, she expect me to pass the 2nd try which further added on my stress. feeling very sad but there's noone i can call at that moment of time to share my sorrows. just sat on a bench, stared blank and tears ran.

i must not think whether i will fail tommorrow. i must pass tmr! else i do not know hw to face and msg my bm. despite of the sadness, i still have to force myself to move forward. this is how tough times are for me now.

here comes a sneak preview of the CHIVAS nite!

introducing our NANNIES, Maurice and Steve!


Steve and his 'ah ger'(little sis)


Maurice n me


all right, this is jeff.


My fave shot!


A toast to the night!

to be continued....

our last training...

The whole bunch of bankers!


my best friend@training, rina and me


presenting the 'seven fairies' (the noisest grp) in class! haha.


Kel and me(on way to Addicted Place!)


Maurice and me

all right, bel. this is Maurice. haha. intro already ok. :P anyway, there are a few more pics taken with him. will upload when im free. *take note - pink tie* hehe...

there are more pics to show u guys but its like 5 am after the party, i need to my rest man. shall upload more 'interesting ones'. opps. haha.

FUN and WACKY training!

thanks for your chicken pie, Paul!

today, i was anticipating that Steve's training will not be boring. Indeed, we played games before we start and after lunch. he is really one down to earth kinda trainer. i believe he has been through quite a fair bit prior to his success now.


Steve, with wee hong and paul (saying out their 'first' experience cos' they were late for class) *haha*

was rather surprised that my branch mgr messaged and met me up at my training centre. she is a nice lady. talked to me about the work and culture etc. hope things will go smoothly. just have to clear the papers n my essay is due on the first day of my papers!!!

i have been dozing off last night while revising my M9. terrible. have to really 'force' myself to stay awake after a long day of training. i have another 3 books to go. chatted with 2 of my colleagues after work, talked about alot of things. think its a way to relieve ourselves in a way. haha. think i will finish the essay while 'battling' my terrible flu then i will be able to concentrate on my papers.

lost my blazer.. :(

i lost my blazer at my training centre yesterday.. told my group of girls and ended up almost the whole class were looking high and low for it.. asked angela(the coordinator), she told me noone went into the room. it was one of my fave blazers!! received msgs at night from some of them to console me. really sweet of them. you guys know who you are, thanks!

today, as usual had tests after lessons. but.... the whole table of us were playing Bingo during the lesson and followed by alvin's table! haha. fun man! had my 'routine naps' during lesson. ;) can tell most of us can't bear to part with one another but we were only left with 3 days....henceafter, our external papers. just hope can pass by one try, else would have to pay for retake.

alright, got to finish up my M9, hopefully half of the book by tonight...

‘夜曲。。心碎的很好听。。’ － 周杰伦

为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你

为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印

那些断翅的蜻蜓散落在这森林
而我的眼睛没有丝毫同情
失去你泪水混浊无情
失去你我连笑容都有阴影
我站在满心期待的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心
像一口没有水的枯井
我用尽我的自信
要我后悔莫急等待爱情

‘暧昧让人受尽委屈。。找不到相爱的真地。。’

i see a sense of guilt and change of heart when our eyes met... beyond description. the way he ended a call which sounded deja vu as though i have heard from him the last month when we end our conversation.

无法形容的感觉。。 .都是一样的。只好说一个月的辛福换来只是伤感与无耐，没遗憾而是失望。不怪任何人，只怪自己的无能为力。

大家，对不起，我近来的沉默与不理会。谢谢每个朋友的关心。

祝你辛福。。。