Dream.....

I had a sad dream last night. I dreamt of him, searching high n low for him. In the end, he came to look for me(like before). Appeared in front of me, so real and the feelings still exist... our eyes were locked. I was leaning on him from his back, both of us are smiling. I can really feel it within me though it was just a dream. I really thought it was real. But my 'heartless' alarm clock went off and brought me back to reality. My pillow is wet, guess I have cried subconsiciously while sleeping. Eyes were puffy. My pace to get ready for work was slower than before. Mind is still pondering on the dream. Never remembered any dream so clearly after waking up.

Yesterday was a busy day again.. After stocktake, I have to prepare for the sales that is going to happen in 7 hrs' time. Lots of stuff n organising to be done. Gonna have 4 hectic days ahead for me.. Super tiring ones.. meaning I am going to work full shift all the way till next mon. I am feeling hungry man.. but I can't eat else I will not be able to sleep well and be awake till don't what time again. Thanks to my hazelnut latte else I will be yawning the whole day. Those who knows me, I am not a coffee drink but a tea drink drinker instead. Unless, I need the ultimate KOPI to keep me awake. Going to make iced milo for me to sleep well. my fave drink. hey, for those who knows where I work, please do drop by. cheers!

:) day for me!!

today's stocktake is the fastest that I have ever done. a rather short day. finished off at around 10plus due to some errors at the kids' dept. left co. at around 11plus. tomorrow will be my off day all the way till next tues. got to energise myself man! haha. received another call for interview from one of the prestigious international bank. donno why man.. these days have been receiving calls to attend interviews when im so busy for the preparations of the sales and stocktake. ive taken down their nos. will arrange a date for my interviews wisely to attend all of them within a day. kinda lazy so no caps for my post. haha. alright! got to rest! ta!

Looming DOOMS Day - Stocktake!

I was very busy today. Doing some paperwork and packing all the reservations to be prepared for the stocktake on 27 june which will happen in a few hrs' time. Don't know why I'm not interested in the mango sales that is happening now. Given the priority as a staff to go in an hr earlier, I still slept all the way till 2pm. Hahaha. Think I am just too tired to wake up early.

I have 4 new cashiers which means I will have 10 cashiers for the upcoming sales. Really hope that I can fully concentrate on teaching them everything. The situation over at my side don't seem to allow me to do so. Not for the crowd but there are practically too many things to do and felt that the managers are not trusting the way I teach my cashiers. Asking them weird questions which are rather ridiculous that I can't help to think, what is going on in my company. Imagine they are only on job for 2 hrs and they are being 'interviewed' with weird questions. I prefer to work with my ex boutique manager who trusts me to fulfil my job responsibility. Hence, I will have the sense of achievement at work.

Although, my workload is lessened but I do not have the least empowerment and I am always being called by my 'managerial' position. 'You are the *****, you should not make any mistakes and know everything.' I do not need to plan my cashiers' roster neither counting of their hrs nor assigning my cashiers of their duties. Sometimes I don't even know where my cashiers are; only to find out that they have been 'dragged' by manager to do stuffs. Hierachy is what my company believes in. Consistent nagging will lead to memory loss and aging. Haha. I do not have the drive to go to work like before. Just chatting with customers and joking with colleagues are good enough to make my day. Met my sec schoolmate. Can't recall his name. He gave me his name, Damon which is not his actual name. Age is catching up on me!!! Got to rest for tomorrow man. Think gonna end around 3-4am. Hope earlier.. Else I will concuss for the whole of Tues which is my only off day till next Tues! Ta!

Initial D is gd!!!

hey guys, go catch Initial D.. Very nice show... esp when jay is in! anyway, kinda technical. Better grab someone who know about either the comics itself or CARS. Today, the whole theatre was full and yah.. young gers screamed when edison is out on the big screen.. don't know why these gers are mad abt him, perhaps they like edison the way I like jay. I liked his songs first not looks ok.. WOW.. he is really cute in the show. I love the part when he raced with those night car racers and he cried why he found out that his gf lied to him..crying in the car. I heard from my friend that even his mum was so touched by the scene and cried when she watched this scene because Jay will never cry no matter what at home.

Kind of sad. Perhaps certain things are better left unknown(not unsaid for this case) or like the saying goes 'Ignorance is a bliss' at times. There is two quotes used in the movie which I found quite funny - Do you know why does God exist? He existed because he can accomplish things which human can't so that's why he is God. Another one which is rather meaningful; Life will be more meaningful when you found a world of your own. Finding a world of your own (which is for Jay in the movie is, racing) and work towards that which will be a great achievement in life.

I am still working towards having a world of my own. haha... Going for 2 interviews soon.. Really need a change of environment especially I am still young!! keke.. have been saying that since last year but my dear friends, pls do understand.. I can't resign without securing another right? I will try my best for these 2 interviews! got to sign off.. tommorrow there will be 2 cashiers coming in and GROOMING course! my god! Alright alright... Self improvement... good for myself... hahaha... cheers!

so near yet so far...

Today, there is this 'red carpet' function opposite my workplace, for the movie; Initial D that Jay is starring in. He is just opposite my workplace but I am working... so sad.. anyway, I saw him over the news that my friend told me about. Will be catching this movie this thurs with my bro! oh Yah! I can hear those fans screaming when he is out! I am not those crazy fans chasing from taiwan to HK to Singapore.. I just like his songs and he is a real talented chap! Go catch his concert and you will know why.

On a lighter note, I am relieved that I have 2 cashiers to boost up my weak manpower at last. They promised to have my manpower back to 10 at least. As usual, I will just listen. Action is what I want to see. The new cashiers are fine, just that one of them happened to be from another country which pronounces 'MDM' like 'MUM'. Guess you guys will know which country she is from but I just told her that it will be better to 'inject' some anxiety into the voice. Hence, customers will feel the enthusiasm you have for serving them. A nicer way to put to her rather than tell her you sounded like ....

I was thinking that today will be a normal day for me till I met this customer; mdm Gan. She is a very nice lady. She is easy to serve as well. When I asked to have her no, she tends to be kind of secretive as if she is from a reputable family etc. Interesting.. I noticed that he has been observing me when I was serving her. In less than 10 mins, she likes whatever I have chosen for her son and bought them; bill - 400 plus. Don't know why, he is someone whom is rather special. Especially he tends to blush whenever I look into his eyes. Haha. Just someone special and cute. That's all. After all these, I am having this terrible headache.. gonna turn in.. else, might not be able to turn up for work tomorrow man. cheers!

suffering from flash memory loss

wOw.. it has been a year since I have last posted. Haha..I have been wanting to concentrate on my design stuffs while working... yah i have been doing so but seems like the new shifts are totally draining me out... terribly. I can sleep for the whole of my off day. Now when i have the opportunity to do a project, i can't do the things I want for the site. I have a chance to work in one of the most famous advertising firm. I do not have the confidence I used to have before. Perhaps after what has happened for the past few months at work has affected me tremenously. I do not have anyone by my side. Facing it alone on my own. I have only memories and images that keep me going even when my HR asks me whether I need leave to rest my mind etc. I told her I can work though I can't deny the fact that the matter does affect me at times. I used to have someone by my side that I can lean on when I felt down. Not anymore.

Hey, I do know that love is not everything but I do understand that it completes your day in the end. He used to be my companion for these years. Finally, discovered that I have been living in his heart all this while, despite the fact I have dumped him for another. Whenever anyone asks me, do you have any regret in life? Yes, leaving him is the only regret I have in life. The only person there when I am down, sick or bored, he can make me smile even though he knows I am back with the same person I have chosen over him. Selfless love. Just a msg,' can we chat?' he called me, asked me what happened. I can't help it but tears ran down my cheeks and told him I can't take the neglect that my bf was giving me then. He just bk out from camp, came to look for me after my work and went back after making sure I am better. yes... life is unfair.. ups n downs..