Slogging as though I'm having an exam...

There's going to be a test tomorrow...kind of stress.. Though I'm not into sales but it is mandatory for me to pass all the internal tests. Not easy man. Anyway, after this test will be a trip that I have been looking forward to with my ex. cols!!! ;)

Shall go back to the notes now... wooooo..

nice italian dinner at Basilico Restaurant (Regent Singapore Hotel)

had a long day at training - mortgage. fun but tiring.. calculating this and that scenarios. after that, went to meet up with my ex-cols at regent hotel for dinner. italian cuisine which comes with buffet appetizer and dessert. didnt eat much. haven got the bill yet as my ex boss paid for it first. very happy occasion to meet up with them. tomorrow, another long day to go... woooo..


Nice wagyu beef wraps... as part of the ala carte main course.

super packed weekend...

fri - after training, met up with my batchmates at clarke quay for dinner and went shanghai dollies. kinda disappointed. the singers cant sing... but the company is GOOOOD!!! around 20 over batchmates went. we had 7 bottles and 2 towers of beer. crazy!!! totally!!! haha.

sat - met up with my ex cols and had dinner. thereafter, met my batchmates (again) and went out to chill. sang ktv.. nice...

today- met my batchmates (yes... again) for mahjong session.. have not been playing hence, really enjoyed! we had dinner at ABC hawker at alexandra. after that, went ikea. i really need to get my racks for my bags man!!! i can see it is 'collapsing' anytime. stocks are out there. guess have to go down to ikea at tampines to get it. kinda tired... now doing face mask and waiting for my hair to dry to ZzzzzZ... i wonder if it is due to late nights these days which caused my face to have a few pimples. sad!! need to sleep early!! haha....

i guess after the training, everyone will be busy with their own stuff. shall treasure this period... :D

another night out with batchmates...

went drinking and singing with my batchmates. as our class is too big, we have to be split into 2 classes. they waited for me to ko from my class as i started only at 3pm. nice...

we met and went to boat quay. had altogether 2 towers and 3 jugs of beer... crazy!! only 4-5 of us for drinking. drank and sang till 2-3am. as its quite a hassle to wash hands after eating the chicken wings, one of the guys went to wash his hands and actually, removed the bones for us. impressed.. haha.

luckily, my training starts at 3pm tmr.. :D

enjoying training till date..

went for training in the afternoon today. love the 'honeymoon' period now... though my batch is rather big, like 55 people but we are always very proactive in activities after training. ya.. as usual, i am one of the organisers. haha. don't know why but i enjoy planning for bonding activities! :D

after training today, i went to meet my ex cols, LW n Q. we went for nice dinner and chatted till 10pm. i will be joining them for the upcoming bali trip!! oh boy, im damn excited!!! have not been traveling for the past months and now there is a chance!! with the people i clique with!! hehe... though, i have said not to go bali again as it was not a pleasant experience the last time but i guess with this group of friends, should be FUN!! did not book with them for the promo price, its like coming sgd 300 for a 2 way trip. I have to book with jetstar for one way to bali and book airasia back to sg with them. hmmph..

tomorrow, my training is in the afternoon again and will be heading down raffles to pass my ex cols some gmart stuff which they bought. guess will be lunching with them before my training starts. i really miss them.. sobsob...

i am still wide awake now.. think 'cause i woke up late today.. haha... shall spend sometime surfing gmart... here i come!!! ;P

enjoyed busy weekends with cols..

sat - went for dinner at oriole cafe at 313. nice place with very good food. went to retrolicious concert with my ex-cols! was a fun one. though, i do not listen english songs as much but retro songs are fine. there were 3 artists. nice one. went out till 2 plus in the morn.

sun - met my batchmate, Jamie and ex col for high tea at Shangri-la. nice desserts there. love it! :) thereafter, went for a massage session. we went robinsons quay for an italian dinner. now, im aching over.. guess the masseuse used too much strength. can feel the bruises at my back, i prefer thai massage.

talked about lots of our own stuff. heard from one of them that guys love to find young gers these days. suddenly, remembered someone told me that my ex bf's only 20 yrs old. hmm.. ok. interesting...

had TWG's camomile (honey and vanilla infused), very nice taste. have not been sleeping well these days. hope will have a nice sleep later...

Truly inspired..

today at training, we have this trainer by the name of Gabriel. Shan't indicate his last name here as he is of a certain social status in Singapore. he really made training enjoyable. he does not have a good health but he has been positive towards life. he shared the importance of wealth and health in life and cannot do without the other. this is what i agree as well.

he openly declares he is only interested in guys. cant help to feel he does have the charisma which is very attractive. today is the only day which my batchmate and I do not feel sleepy in class. he has been with the organisation for more than 7 years. he shared that the organisation cares for your career path as in where do you want to move etc. sounds nice thou he is not the first person who said so.

looking forward to his classes... :D

happy on first day of training but received a piece of news...

i can only say im super depressed now....

how i spend my last day of bumming...

early in the morn, one of my clients called me asked me to wake up for tim sum. we went Hua Ting at Orchard Hotel. The tim sum are nice and different from other tim sum places. siew mai and the custard bun are nice. supposed to meet another client but he is busy today. shall meet next week. he is nice and wished me all the best for tomorrow.

i have mixed feelings now. feels excited about tomorrow yet worried. my ex col called me today and reminded me of the scary training she has gone through. hope it will be fine. can't help to have the anxiety feeling. wanted to find someone to chat.. but seemed tough...

was reading the love story between MM Lee and his wife. can't help to feel sad but their love is worth my respect. even though, she was bedridden for the last 2 years, he has been by her side at the end of everyday to read her daily news, poems and chat. he is indeed a devoted guy and as for his wife, she can be for greater things but she chose to be behind his man for the past 60 over years. supporting him by taking care of her family, business and giving advice when needed. she is like his consultant. a true confidante, partner and wife. envious of many.

all these years, i have been hoping to find the someone who can just be by my side, listen to me when i needed a listener, share my joy and laughters and cheer me up when i feel down. cook for him when we do not feel like eating out. see him smile when having my food. whenever i feel someone is the one, somehow unexpected things will happen. why is fate always making fun of me?

i remembered the first experience i have had was quite a no. of years back. we started as friends then couple, split and met up years later, split again. it was a painful experience for the first time. do you have a feeling as though you were walking on a rainbow with someone? yah, it was the feeling then. everything seems in place and i felt really loved.

the second, we met through a mutual friend and felt we can click somehow. he is a sweet guy. i remembered he packed lunch for me when i do not have time to go out for lunch at work. he is very good at expressing himself in words. the things he wrote can really make my day when i hated going work. everyday, i will look forward to knock off and meet up with him. things were complicated then as he was still settling stuff. i have trust in him that things will be settled soon. :) he had a change in career, things were fine initially but drifted apart eventually as i did not join him out when he is back.

the recent, i met him while working in my last organisation. he has a nice voice and was very helpful. when things were not working out at work, he will cheer me up with gifts and flowers. i think he gave me at least 15 bouquets already. he is really a lovable guy. always have the koala smile and i really love to see him smile. he is huggable but i guess not now as he slimmed down quite a lot. things have been blissful till recent. somehow, he has things that he has kept in his heart all these while and did not share with me. yes, i maybe insensitive at times but communication is vital in a relationship as well. this is really a hard fall following the previous two.

i thought i have reached the 'terminal station' of relationships but seemed like i have alighted at the 'bus stop' instead. i am really tired and upset. i feel as though i have fallen into a well and looking out at the sky seemed dark and gloomy...

another day back to my routine...

went out with mum in the morn today. she wants to go a temple pray for my sister at Amoy street. we had lunch there. had a very nice fish curry (though my stomach has not recovered) at this store which is quite well known, located diagonally opposite Amoy food centre. i went to buy iced coffee at a store by the name of 'Coffee Break' in the food centre. taste is even nicer than the iced hazelnut latte i have at Starbucks. thereafter, we went to chinatown to purchase some daily necessities.

felt kinda sad when i go there.. these days, i am been feeling down. sometimes, it is hard to put in words when things are not progressing. there isn't anyone by your side to accompany you when you are alone. at times, when you feel like watching movie or go somewhere to have a better meal, because of mood, you will just settle down for a simple meal or bread and iced milo. ya.. that's my lifestyle these days. shades and tones of grey. i wonder when the rays of rainbow will shine into my life again...

two of my clients wanted to meet up with me tomorrow for meals and drinks. geez.. shall have a sip or two. they have been very nice to me when i was with my previous organisation. initially wanted to go for a short trip but then, noone is free. guess most have plans already. hope to be able to travel soon..

stomach feels weird...

can't sleep thus shall post...it was a warm evening earlier on. i went for buffet dinner with my frd, phyllis at Mandarin Orchard hotel, triple 3. geez.. its kinda pricy man. we just sat in as she cant walked anymore. didnt have much food as stomach felt weird (even till now). the desserts aren't that fantastic. kinda disappointed especially at the price we are paying...

i donno whats wrong man... i feel like my stomach is tossing now!!! great and its raining now.... a good weather to sleep yet i can't sleep. must be the tea i have had... bored. -_-

feeling down...

finally, i managed to switch to starhub for my ISP. they will be coming to deliver the cable modem and router. on top, they will be giving me discount on my hp lines, cable tv and internet. cool. should have switched to them long time ago.

though had a fun dinner earlier on, felt kinda upset now. wanted to clear up the television area for the starhub guys to set up my modem but mum would not want me to as I have already washed up. felt so bad... from there on, thoughts came into my mind, one after another.. why am i still a burden in my mum's mind even till now? for what has happened recently, i know she must have felt very disappointed in me. sometimes, in order not for her to worry about me, i will say everything is fine even though, i do not feel so. i hope she will feel better in that way. hope one day i will be able to make up to her by passing her how much she is earning every month so that she can rest and relax at home. if she is afraid she has nothing to do, she can go take up some part time job. i know she will still continue to work.. seeing her work so late and dozed off on the sofa. felt kinda sad....

hope things will turn for the better for me and thereafter, mum's as well.

Enjoyable gathering

just came back from a gathering at SINMA (geylang lor 3) to celebrate children's day with my ex-cols. really missed them so much. they are so caring and loving towards me. definitely will miss mel, LW, quek and ooi. had crabs, clayfish, tofu, vege and yam.. haven had such a big spread for a long time.. used to have this kind of spread often. hope my future cols will be as fun as them....

a nice spread and company...


nice farewell gift from my ex boss...


a wallet which my ex-col airflown from milan.. :)


a longchamp bag bought overseas by my ex-col's frd... :)


one of my fave watch brands... this is genuine.. ;D

counting down to the end of my buming days...

hmm.. another 4 days which is next wed will be the start of my training at my new workplace. did not travel though but had good rest these days. feel like catching a movie soon. have not been watching one for sometime. think it is going to rain again.. it seems like monsoon season. have been raining these days.

met up with foi earlier on, she will be holding her wedding ceremony at swissotel. :) great to hear that she is happily planning her wedding stuffs. i guess when u met the right person in your life, everything just falls in place nicely. when spoke of her past bfs, she felt kinda upset then but her hubby just made up everything that was missing in her life. am happy for her...

will be meeting my ex cols for dinner later to celebrate Children's Day! haha!!! so funny! idea came up by my buddy TM at work. kinda miss them..

these days have been dreaming of the weirdest things which i do not know why. hmm...

hope my upcoming training will be an enjoyable one... :)

high speed fibre surfing!!

i was so excited about the high speed surfing till i checked via www.opennet.com and realised that my block will only be optical-fibre ready next year, dec 2011 - jan 2012. :( the download speed can be up to 200 mbps and upload speed up to 100 mbps!! how much i am paying now which is for download speed 10mbps, i can subscribe for download speed of 150 mbps (high speed fibre surfing). geez...

now, i am planning to change my ISP. think going to change back to starhub. felt that their network does not drop intermittently like singnet. need to call them fast. wanna settle all these stuff before i start work next wed... kinda lazy to go back to work though it is training, heard it is tough.. will try to enjoy.. :)

finally, the 'headache monster' is gone! was feeling terrible in the day. had to drag myself to find food.. sad.. what to do. noone is home.. what a good time to fall sick when i am not medically covered by any companies!!! -_- now i am so used to sleep late.. i wonder how am i able to wake up early for training... haha...

today is Children's DAY!!! A day which i have always looked forward to when i was a kid. i do not have to go school and the day before will be celebration whereby no studies as well and just sat at assembly hall to watch performances!! fun!! remembered those days were easily contented, not much of worries, life is simpler indeed. :) childhood is really memorable..