Sad news one after another....

As mentioned earlier on, one of my ex colleague committed suicide. Yesterday, saw xx's grandma passed away... Today, my colleague's dad passed away... My condolences to xx n katrina... Pls take care... Hugs!

Life is so short... Before u least expected, it might be the last time spent together... The key thing in life, cherish everyone around you. Who knows, it maybe the last time seeing him/her... Life is pretty short. Good times just end at a blink but tough times feel like centuries..

May they R.I.P....

lovely sunday...

went to a fun wedding dinner on sat. thought that sunday will be a laid back one... instead, surprise do happen.. and yah.. a mark to remember, good times to reminisce.. enjoyed totally.. pls take care XX... miss ya! ;)

Sneeze... Sneeze.. Flu.. Pls go away...

Had training today and was a short day! Ended at 430 and my colleagues and I went for foot massage.. I like!! However, don't know for what reason, I had flu since last night and I'm not recovered till now.. Kept sneezing non stop.... Just had the super drowsy flu tablet, hope it will go off tomorrow...

Life is so brittle...

One of my ex colleague just passed away.. Committed suicide by charcoal burning. Don't know much details.. He is the first friend I've known that passed away. He is only around 30 or so. Heard he has depression symptoms... The next thing is, he passed away..

ZhenTing, may your soul rest in peace.. Hope you find happiness and solace in the other world.. Thanks for all the assistance you have given me when I was still new in the organization..

Feels sad... Need a hug... Sob..

A 14deg C night..

It is indeed cold here.. was kinda troubled on how I can go to KL on sat. All the buses at the terminal only go back to sg. The only way is by cable car then bus but unfortunately, the luggage my sis and I brought was a bit bigger than the permitted size to board cable car. Thanks to one of my colleagues, James who is kind to fetch me from Genting. Nice... 

After the afternoon nap, I can't sleep till 2am and was at Starbucks as there's free wifi, chatting with my friends. When I'm up at room, great! After washup, I'm sober again. Now at 330am, I cant sleep.... Geeezz....

A misty Genting....

Touched down at KL LCCT airport, 640am. Was a 35 mins flight, comparing to a coach journey of 6 hours to reach KL. It is definitely worth it. From airport, I took a shuttle bus service at RM 35 by aerobus to Genting for 1 1/2 hours. The roads can barely be seen.. It seems like cold morning.. Can't wait to go out and enjoy the cold weather... 

Received a sweet surprise by him.. It's actually nothing much to speak of but knowing him.. Waking up so early in the morning to wish me safe journey and some sweet stuff.. I'm sure he really made the effort to wake up. Thanks BB.. You really made my day.. As said before, he is not those typical bf that will really be super sweet to you but just doing things which you would least expect him to do. It's enough to make you smile from the heart. Things between me n him are still a big question mark. Somehow, I do appreciate his presence here in my office. It's like warmth from fire in the snow. I do not deny he does make my blood boils at times. But seems like as time goes by, it's good to take things easy n relax. I guess as you age, the impulsiveness in you tends to lessen and rationale takes over. 

Here at Genting, will enjoy myself, relaxing the way I want it to be... 

Fly... Fly away...

Yeh!! My first trip for the year! Heading Genting then KL!! So excited... In just less than 6 hrs, I will be on the plane!!! Heehee... Can't zzzzz man.. Glad that Ive wifi at the coffeebean at Genting n in my KL hotel... Shan't bring my lappy... Added liability.. Seems like a few of my frds are going overseas during this weekend as well... Will be meeting some of them at KL for dinner.. Cool!

Will miss you XX!!

bits & pieces on a sunday...

met up with my friend today... went for a pedicure and manicure session.. it was so-so only.. not really that fantastic. afterwhich, we went to Marinabaysands shopping mall. sat at Bean, a subsidiary under Coffeebean. She told me about her stuff... etc and finally, she disclosed that she is with one of her friends whom I know as well. they are dating (more or less, i have expected). Actions can tell. I can see she is very touched by the guy's sweet gestures. I mean women would wish their other half to be sweet and show attention to them as well. glad she is happy but somehow, she still has some reservations.

at dinner, she talked about my stuff. asked me how i am with him. she commented he is not suitable for me etc. I told her that i know very well he is not my kind of guy. sometimes, i guess.. if things are not meant to be, just accept it and move on. even I know this guy is suitable and he is the kind of guy I'm looking for and timing is not right, isn't it the same as the situation earlier on? she asked me would I be tired going through another relationship if things just do not work out? i replied her, yes... who would not be tired? BUT! if you feel that the feeling is right and did not even give it a try, it would not be fair to both parties. even you feel this person is the one and turns out not after being together for a period of time, trying to see things work out but still do not, are you going to stay on?

she commented that i am brave... i guess there's nothing brave about it.. just life.. the way you want to live it.. and try to stay positive to live the fullest to enjoy it! i have my lows as well.. if given a choice, to die happily or pathetically, i would rather die happily.. at least i have no regrets... :) just try my best to be the 'energizer bunny'!! Heehee..

Awww... There goes my long weekend... However, I just need to work for another 3 days, will be my trip to KL!! Keke... Need to sleep soon.. Got to work tomorrow... Zzz zzz...

An enjoyable night indeed...

met up with phy tonight and my batchmate joined thereafter phy's bf. we talked about lots of stuff and I really laughed till my tears out.

reached hm, showered and suddenly felt kinda of dizzy... always! at the time of the month, i will have this kind of dizzy spells at times, it can be so bad I can feel im going to collapse on the floor anytime... then i will have to see my doc again. :( hate it! pls tell me its going to be over soon... imagine i have cramps, headache and dizzy spells. crazy!!

think i better sleep soon... rest more...

2nd day of leave...

heard a bad news.. one of my cols is going to resign.. Awwww.. thought she is one of the better cols around.. but im happy for her as she is going to private banking. feels kinda sian working there... hope can move to somewhere better.

did my jetstar cancellation of my outbound flight, waited for half an hour before I can speak to anyone... my god.. comparing to Tiger airways, I have waited only less than 5 minutes.

Just another 3 working days and here's comes my holidays!!! haha!! just walking around malaysia... really no idea where to go.. just walk.. haha.. actually wanted to go BKK or TPE but seems like the airfare is freaking expensive!!! think a nearby trip will be good enough. heee...

was kinda bored today.. just woke up and brought mum downstairs for breakfast. heard the tsunami at japan.. hope everything will be fine.. disasters happening all over the world... geez....

first day of leave...

today i went for facial.. was a painful one... i have not been going for my facial sessions for 2 months and my face became so disastrous... it is the first time my face was full of red spots and swollen after facial session. sob!! luckily, i did today, i have 3 days ahead to recover before i head back to work..

met up with XX today.. mood feels better.. :)

popping eyes!!

i have been having bloodshot eyes since monday morning and it still hurts intermittently. Awww.. I do not feel comfortable.. sob. changed my contact lenses still does not work. my colleagues were asking me why my eyes looked as though i am going to cry anytime. please recover soon... :(

drunk thoughts..?

indeed, he sensed i feel that he is drifting far from me.. I know myself when things turn different, I may choose to leave... suddenly received his long long messages.. telling me, he is not far from me.. he has too much to handle, somehow i feel is his family problems. told me he was eating the puffs i gave him from Marks & Spencer. I can sense he is troubled. knowing me, i would not ask him unless he tells me.

he commented he feels he is lousy in the way he treats me (true), as i always believe in, 'not everyone is perfect, it is all about appreciating the someone who is in front of you.' he seconded to that but he appreciated me in his own selfish ways (which i won't know). 'im part of him'?? just that he did not voice out... ok...

do you believe in people who drank more, would tell you their inner thoughts? perhaps those thoughts that are buried all the way down which will only be disclosed when the person is not of a right state of mind.. ya? he is the type of man who would not let others see the weaker side of him. he will not always show his passion or love towards the someone... so this someone must be sensitive enough to 'feel' his passion. deep...

for me, i just hope the person will show his love and appreciation towards me, not only on special days but as and when he feels like it. just like, everyday can be valentine's day not only on 14 feb every year. isn't that pathetic that you only show your appreciation on such day, birthday, anniversary or xmas day? this is an on-going process, be it you are dating or married which goes inline with communication. appreciating the special someone that has accompanied you and end off your day with a sweet note or the special someone has actually washed clothes for you, knowing you are tired after a long day at work.

this is the bits and pieces that goes to show the special someone care and concert towards you in his/her own way, in return, show appreciation towards the person by hugging the person and say 'thank you, i appreciated it alot.' it goes a long way... i may not be a good gf but i am still learning.. hope to give the best for the someone that is worth my love... :) Ta!

Gaining confidence or simply insecure?

Do you have friends that keep telling you how well the opposite gender treats him / her? How well connected they are? They do not have any interest in this person (as though) but you can hear the party's name being mentioned in every conversation? keeps mentioning how brittle she is even though, she is constantly being showered with love and concern from her male friends around her?

Seriously, i am not jealous or anything.. just felt sometimes sending wrong messages all around the place, is just not right. oh well, it's her life, the way she wants it to be.

My life may not be as flamboyant as her but i do feel blessed each time i hear from XX.. AT.. friends that i have not heard from sometime like, sarina and foi.

nevertheless, I have learnt to enjoy life now.. loving myself... today, I brought mum and sis for breakfast, early movie and good lunch at Soup Restaurant. hope they like it... when you are not out with friends, it is always good to spend time with your family. heee..

A beautiful Monday...

Missed my bus in the morning, thought that it would be a lousy day ahead.. But, another bus came shortly after, it was half full!! Im not late for work.. Amazing!!! I guess it's my lucky day!! Indeed... Had an enjoyable lunch.. coffee after that.. feels really happy..
Have cleared some doubts I have in my mind with him...

Hope the rest of the week will be the same...