'sunlight' shined in after 2 wks..

after two weeks of gloomy mood... finally, i see 'sunlight' into my life.. everything seems back to normal... i guess it is just him. we went for movie today... feels better... but.. inside me, is this real? yah... was real.. watched movie. had dinner...

tots in my mind...sean's comment keeps coming in my mind since last night... 'he shouted at her cause he is interested in her..' why do i feel sensitive when he just mentioned about her at lunch and on our way there? only 2 times but i felt affected... women! then i said, 'today, you mentioned her a few times hor...' he said 'have meh, don even realised..' probably, i am oversensitive..

enough of that, today has been a great day for me.. hope everyday is as great as today!! nice partner to work with. settled tricky cases. unhappy clients walked out happily.. went out dating.. im back in contact with one of my ex bosses!!! COOL!!! god, pls bless me with happiness for everyday like today..

I wonder hows XX's hols overseas... hmm... enjoy yourself k. im sure things will be better.. :) i will pray for you...

Cloudy mood yet trying to bring rainbow to others...

Ever since after CNY, I feel we have distanced.. Anyway, still the usual him, easily agitated. I know he feels it from me too... He msg me n apologized for not being able to accompany me... he is a guy who is full of confidence which can be a fine line to draw between confidence and proud... sometimes, he feels our mutual level of communication is not there...

its just me.. perhaps i may have zoned-out after work in which i may have missed out what he has said... sometimes, i do feel the stress when im with him.. somehow, he makes me feel lost.. donno what is he thinking.. he can be very sweet at this moment but can be moody the next moment... sounds like weather... time is an element which makes me feel nervous.. he is very particular on timing.. even that 10mins' late due to work...

this has been on my mind for some time.... despite this, i have been putting on a smiley face to all my colleagues and friends.. the deepest part in me, a cloudy mood...

Thanks T for accompanying last night for dinner when I needed someone. One of my batchmates bought a pink tulip for Valentine's day..as postdated. :) nice...

Happy Valentine's Day!

Just had a CNY reunion steamboat dinner with Shi n gang... Was a Kimchi steamboat. Not very spicy, just fine for me. had lots of food and played mahjong.. have not been playing for a long time.. hee hee. waited for a long time for a cab near her place. seems like no cabs when it is around 10 plus.

Lots of memories flowed into my mind while waiting... I remember that he stays opposite her place. Used to put my first handmade paper during my poly days into his letterbox. (oh yah, he still kept it even though six years later when we got back together. In his drawer. All the stuffs which I gave him in the past.) Thanks for keeping them. I wonder how he is doing now. The last time I saw him was, at Jacky Cheung's concert last year. There is another of his concert this year... maybe will bump into him again. haha..

Hmmm... Just received a Valentine's greeting from T. Wow... It is really sweet of him ya... Somehow, I feel kinda sad... No plans, celebration nor gifts... SOB... and best, I'm having terrible cramps now.. backache!!! Will someone call me and give me a Valentine's kiss or give me a Valentine's hug?? hmmm.. shall see!

Got to snuggle into my comfy comforter... May tmr be a great day!! Zzzzz...

Days after CNY long weekend...

At last... It's weekends!!! Now on my way home. Thinking back about the things that have happened, my thoughts and feelings. Had a long weekend. Have this mixed feeling which I hate to experience when I'm with someone. Is he packed with work or I'm just being oversensitive? Perhaps... Oh ya...He packed our favorite Malay fried chicken rice for me. Sweet...

Ironically , we were supposed to go out for dinner yesterday but he just left for home after work. I'm like huh.. Then he msg me at night.. Saying he still remember our dinner and he's disappointed with my excuses... I guess I know what he is referring about.. Alright. To me, I will be impartial between work and personal life. I guess it explains why.. He has mentioned that he will tell me off if I've made any mistake at work. I told him I'm fine as long as it is reasonable.

Today, he msg me for lunch.. Didn't know my lunch khakis and him were waiting for me somewhere till one of them called me. (weird.. Why is it not him calling me?) Like what I hope.. Relationship to be simple and sweet.. oh well..

On a lighter note, work seems to be turning for the better. The 'infamous colleague' of mine has a change in her attitude. She became more friendly and polite. Perhaps she is just came back from her leave and is 'energised' Haha. I feel really tired these days. Have been hanging out late..

Shall rest early today. Have to wake up this coming weekend.. for praying of tai sui and going market with shi and gang for CNY steamboat reunion!!! Yeh!! thereafter, is Valentine's Day... Geez... No present/date... SOB!!! Ta!

funny events that have happened today...

today is such a blue day for me..cause its the last day of the week that I can sleep as long as I wished! anyway, i did not sleep much today... Wanted to enjoy my morning bfast... But not really morning or rather late morning by the time mum woke up.

Event 1 - Told mum that I have some chocolates for her to bring to workplace to share with her colleagues. Instead of bringing it to work, she mistook it for another bag and brought my Sis' stuff to work! It was damn funny especially when mum called me and told me about it. Haha.. Guess they are both in plastic bags, no wonder it was taken wrongly.

Event 2 - went out dinner with Sis. We had steamboat at Bugis, still feels as full till now. Thereafter, we went River Angbao. Seriously speaking, it was nothing compared to a no. of years back when it was held at the presently located Singapore Flyer. Don't think it's worth going anymore. It looks about the same as last year's except the leading character is replaced by rabbit. Haha... When we are waiting for our bus back home, I told Sis that I need to get a replacement corp phone and a new phone for my use. I'm currently using hers though. She was telling me, initially when she switched back to normal phone from iPhone, she cant get used to the way of typing SMS. (she was showing me how she types SMS, as though she was using the iPhone, tapping using her index finger.) She told me some people was looking at the way she typed SMS. The way she illustrated was simply hilarious!!! Felt bad man... Cause I'm using her phone now... :(

Anyway, guess I will have to get the phones somehow... Got to zzzzz.. Nitez..

Awww.... the long weekend is over soon..

Oh well, this CNY is sure a simple and quiet one.. did not go to the usual Chinatown (which I make it a point to go every year) and River Hongbao. Hmm.. resting at home can be considered a way to 'energise' myself over the past weeks. haha..

Oh yah! Thanks XX for dropping by with soda water for my Choya, to brighten up my boring CNY. :) was doing my office's rosters for the sales and service people. totally drained.. have been sleeping alot these days. loved it!